Rebirth
in the Present position.

A card in the middle position indicates what is affecting your question at this time.

Rebirth is a card of transformation, perpetual change, altered states of consciousness, transmigration, renewal, and mystery. To be born to your higher self the personality must yield.

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The Lovers
in the Future position.

A card in the right position indicates your questions future.

There is a choice or attraction that must be looked at clearly to avoid making a wrong decision. A difficult decision must be made for long-term good.

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Wealth
in the Past position.

A card in the left position indicates what has happened to affect your question in the past.

By gaining rapport with the Earth element, you bring prosperity and wealth into your life. You may seek to improve your home environment.

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There's a fresh breeze blowing into your life now, but you might have to open your window to notice it. You are distracted by anything enjoyable, so it could require a conscious decision to let in the deeper psychological issues. It may not be a particularly intense day, but you can still sense an emotional storm building on the horizon. Enjoy yourself today without stressing about tomorrow, for it will arrive soon enough.
Saturday, April 29, 2006

You are heading toward an exciting weekend where your imagination can soar high above the real world. Memories of your childhood could flood into awareness, bringing you a sense of nostalgia. You may have a pretty matter-of-fact outlook on your past, but now things are a bit softer and more diffused. Enjoy the flights of fancy, but don't forget to return to the present time when needed.
Friday, April 28, 2006

Bizarre, unexpected developments could literally turn your life upside down today. Money could be involved, or new people could come on the scene who open up new doors for you that will eventually lead to a whole new life. You could even fall in love at first sight. It isn't easy to make predictions for strange days like this, dear Aquarius, but rest assured: You won't go to bed tonight the same person you were when you woke up.

when i fell tonight, he just looked down at me, didnt offer a word, didnt ask if i was okay, it was like he didnt care, it really hurt so much, i dont understand his feelings towards me anymore, he acts like he is so tired of me and doesnt want me here, but to see me fall down and really hurt myself, not one word of kindness, not, are you okay, not a single word, and i was crying and could not get up, i think he knew the chair was broken, as he had moved it out of his room, and when we talked about it later, he blamed me for the way i sat down in the chair, like it was my fault, something is very wrong here, his bipolar side, that i think hates me, would have left me there on the floor and walked away if he had a choice, even when i asked him to help me up, there was no compassion, no kindness, no concern, and i really hurt my neck, back, and knees tonight, and he knew the chair was fucked up, it was like he wanted to to get hurt, his bipolar side is becoming stronger, when he loved me, he would have been all over me, helping me get up and doing something, all tonight he just ignored me when i cried, and basically , he didnt give a damn that i fell down and could have broken my back and hips, this bad side of james is scaring me, and all night it was this or that, did i leave the outside water on, did i do this, did i do that, its like he has it in for me, he does not want me here anymore, and if i had an easy way to commit suicide tonight, i would

dave hale zeus

Hi Garry: this is just for the record, I just sat in a wooden chair in our dinning room and the whole chair broke apart, and I fell
hard on the carpet, Im using an ice pack on my back, but if it gets worse or inflammed I will go to the emergency room,
I just saw dr jackson yesterday, i see dr shah next tuesday and will tell her what happened, i have a bad disk in my lower
back and my lower back has been getting worse and really is giving me a lot of grief, I had to lay on the floor for about 30 minutes and I cried like a baby.....i am so tired of all of this.....

while James helped me put an ice pack under my back, im up now typing but I still have the ice pack on my lower back, to keep any inflammation
down, lets hope it didnt do much damage, but I needed to let someone know what just happened for the record, and James
saw it happen as he was making dinner. Im headed back to bed, I am asking dr slomka for an mri for both knees when I see him on May 11, per dr jackson's request for an mri for both knees. If they cant find out what is wrong, Im going to ask for a neurologist or someone else to find out what is going on with my knees. Once again thanks for all your help.

dave hale zeus

Today may kick off a period of deep soul-searching, but this isn't necessarily about wandering around in the dark recesses of your mind. It's more about the basic issues, such as what you need from your home and family. Revisit your own past to help you better decide what you want in your future.
Thursday, April 27, 2006

Aquarius
Use the morning time to take care of yourself, dear Aquarius. It could be that you are so concerned with the world around you and the shared environment that you are forgetting to take care of Number One - you. Use the early afternoon period as a time of reflection and meditation. Gather facts from your inner state and use this information to create a plan for the future. Be flexible in your approach.

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You can probably sweet-talk your way in or out of any situation you need to today, dear Aquarius. Realize that you have a great deal of power within, and as long as you aren't afraid to use it, you can accomplish anything. Don't be afraid of failure. If you never try, you will never succeed. If you see missing pieces in the plan don't worry about it, trust that things will fall into place as you need them to. Keep your eye on the prize!

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Charlotte Observer 04/07/2006 Bush critic talk of town

Bush critic talk of town
JIM MORRILL
jmorrill@charlotteobserver.com
Friday was not a normal day for Harry Taylor.
He did two national TV interviews. His phone rang all day. E-mails flooded his inbox. People he never met called him a hero and a patriot. He became a darling of Internet blogs, including one called simply: thankyouharrytaylor.org.
"It's like I've got 10,000 butterflies jumping up and down in my stomach," he said in an afternoon interview. "It's been that way for 27 hours now."
A day before, President Bush called on Taylor during a question session after a speech at Central Piedmont Community College. "I have never felt more ashamed of, nor more frightened, by my leadership in Washington, including the presidency," Taylor told Bush. "And I would hope from time to time that you have the humility and the grace to be ashamed of yourself."
"I'm not your favorite guy," Bush interrupted at one point, waving off boos directed at the Charlotte businessman and giving him a chance to speak.
Even Taylor lauded the president's gracious response. But his comments made waves way beyond CPCC's Halton Theatre.
His public scolding was picked up by media from around the country and as far away as South Africa. Even the official Chinese news agency reported it. The media reaction began when a flock of reporters mobbed him right after he left his seat Thursday.
"I felt like I had just hit the home run to win the World Series," he told CNN's Soledad O'Brien Friday morning. When she asked if he'd spent a lot of time thinking about what to say if given a chance, Taylor had a ready answer.
"Yes, about six years worth," he said.
Taylor, 61, is a slender, soft-spoken man with a mop of wavy salt-and-pepper hair. He runs a commercial real estate business out of a one-room office off Morehead Street. It's an unpretentious setting, lined with architectural drawings and renderings and a Charlie Chaplin wall clock.
A divorced New Jersey native, he has lived in Charlotte for almost 20 years. He's president of the Charlotte Folk Society and has spent more time playing the banjo and mandolin than in political activism.
He's an unaffiliated voter and says he hasn't belonged to a political party for three decades. His political involvement began a few years ago through his membership in the Sierra Club, and he has spoken out about environmental and other issues.
It was through his membership in the Charlotte World Affairs Council that he scored an invitation to the president's appearance. A few minutes with a microphone brought an avalanche of response. He said he has gotten calls from servicemen and their families, almost all positive. E-mails to the Observer ran 4-1 in support, though reactions were mixed on charlotte.com.
"He wasn't a raging liberal just spewing out accusations," said Stephen Demetriou, a commercial photographer from Maine who read about Taylor on a blog. "There's a lot of people who share his views."
Critics, however, called Taylor rude, embarrassing and misguided.
"I thought it was very out of place," said Dean Davidson, a real estate broker from Waxhaw. "I could hear the pacifism in his voice. To me it's just the same old, same old you hear every day; criticism of the administration's policies but never a new idea."
Other critics posted comments on the Observer's Web site.
"Mr. Harry Taylor made a fool of himself with that retarded speech he made in front of the wolrd," one poster wrote. "Taylor and Cindy Sheenan would make a great couple."
Taylor isn't worried about the exchange hurting his business. And Theresa Salmen, executive vice president of the Charlotte Region Commercial Board of Realtors, said developers she met with Friday morning didn't seem to mind.
"They were really impressed with how Bush handled it, as well as the way Harry had handled his questions," she said. "Everybody has a right to their opinions."
On Friday, Taylor juggled all the phone calls and e-mails with a business meeting and plans for a Friday night Folk Society concert at Central Piedmont, not far from where he confronted the president.
So much has happened to Taylor since Thursday he isn't sure what to expect next. "I didn't set out to change my life," he said. "But I'm really passionate about humanity and fairness. ...We only come around this way once."
When things settle down, he plans to write Bush a letter.
"I just want to tell him, `Thank you for listening to me and quieting 900 people down so I could talk,' " he said. "And remind him that civil discourse is critical to the successful operation of a communal society."
Jim Morrill: (704) 358-5059

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In the Plant Game, Some Bets Are In - New York Times


April 6, 2006
Cuttings
In the Plant Game, Some Bets Are In
By KEN DRUSE
TONY AVENT is not too worried about reports that the garden market is in decline, or so he would have you believe. Mr. Avent, a co-owner of Plant Delights Nursery, a retail and mail-order concern in Raleigh, N.C., acknowledged recently that "the slump is real" — after years of double-digit sales increases, he said, the business saw a decrease in sales of 2.2 percent in 2004 and no growth last year. But "these things happen in cycles," he said.
Mr. Avent is relying on his customer base, which he says is made up mainly of "collectors" (as opposed to "mainstream" buyers, who frequent local nurseries and garden centers, or what he calls the "bottom feeders," who buy on impulse at big box stores and home improvement outlets) to help him cycle out of the current downturn. Plant Delights is one of the country's premier "boutique" nurseries, known, along with others like Heronswood in Washington state, Fairweather Gardens in New Jersey and Forestfarm in Oregon, for attracting serious gardeners every spring with new and unexpected botanical eye candy.
And Mr. Avent, who owns the nursery with his wife, Michelle, has developed a reputation among his customers for predicting and even setting trends in gardening. In the early 1980's, he took tropical houseplants off the windowsill and planted them in outdoor beds and containers for summer, creating a craze for frost-tender perennials that continues today. In the mid 90's, he bet on hostas, breeding his own (and giving them ear-catching names like Elvis Lives, Elephant Burgers and Hosta Bubba); they are now among the best-selling perennials on the market. And 10 years ago he fell for Arisaema — jack-in-the-pulpits — from Asia, contributing to what became a national love affair with the plants.
For customers like Mark Veeder, a New York City events planner with a garden in Barryville, N.Y., who flew to North Carolina and filled a rented truck with plants from the nursery in 2001, it "is a kind of mecca." Its huge test garden has more than 17,000 specimens so "you can see how the plants grow," he said, and it offers "the newest, most sought-after items" — plants that get the collector's heart thumping.
"Our goal is to separate the winners from the losers so our customers don't have to," said Mr. Avent, who travels constantly in search of new plants, networking with other plant breeders and what are known as "sport fishermen" (avid collectors who search out and develop the unexpected plant mutations that go unnoticed at commercial nurseries), as well as his customers, who are often knowledgeable themselves.
Some of Mr. Avent's newest plants come from nurseries in other countries, like England, that are more horticulturally advanced than the United States. (Asked to pinpoint the cultural difference, Mr. Avent said: "If you're a kid in England and you're not interested in gardening, your parents take you to a psychiatrist to find out why. If you're a kid in the United States and you're interested in gardening, your parents take you to a psychiatrist to find out why.") Two of the most promising English imports, he said, are Agapanthus and Kniphofia, both of which are already popular on the West Coast.
"They're great, tacky, gaudy plants," Mr. Avent said, "and I think that's why they're becoming popular. People are inherently tacky and gaudy, and at certain times in history that becomes acceptable."
Other new favorites are hybrids, like the Colocasia, or elephant's-ear, that he has been breeding in collaboration with a University of Hawaii professor. These rugged tropical plants, often with enormous leaves, have been growing in popularity for a few years — perhaps, Mr. Avent speculates, because gardeners in temperate climates are drawn to their exoticism and to the challenge that growing a tropical plant in a temperate climate seems to present. "When you give people something they think they can't grow, they love it," he said. He seems confident that his new breeds, which are still in development, will have huge commercial appeal when they are introduced to the market in the next year or so.
Some of Mr. Avent's finds come from the wild and are grown from seed and then introduced to the market. "People are always looking for something that will take shade and be durable," he said. "That's one reason I think wild ginger has tremendous potential," he added of a plant that enjoys cult status in Japan but is only beginning to find its place in the American market.
Another Avent success story is the Baptisia minor (or Blue Pearls). Ten years ago, having witnessed the popularity of the Baptisia australis, a widely available, drought-resistant plant with indigo flowers, he made repeated trips through the backwoods of the Southeast, from North Carolina to Texas, in search of a smaller, more marketable version of the species growing in the wild.
After gathering seeds from 30 different varieties, he found a compact one that bloomed in profusion, growing 56 flower spikes on each plant, compared with an average of six on a typical wild Baptisia. He introduced the new plant to the market last year and already it is so popular, he said, that his nursery "can hardly produce it fast enough" to keep it in stock.
Still other plants, like the ferns he sees "coming back in," are not new but renewed, brought back after decades out of the public eye. These plants, infamous as symbols of 1970's décor, are now selling well for outdoor use in shady gardens. (Ferns, like many other plants, he noted, move in 30-year fashion cycles.) Mr. Avent has brought back a few fern varieties that had been popular Victorian plants, but were nearly lost forever.
Mr. Avent is adamant that timing is all when it comes to a plant's market potential. Plants have to be novel enough to catch the eye but can't stand out so far from the pack that they intimidate consumers. His own experience bears this out. He has occasionally been so far ahead of the curve that it has taken nearly a full fashion cycle for the world to catch up. In 1981, he grew a pineapple lily, or Eucomis, from seed that came up with striking purple leaves, instead of the usual green. He introduced it to the market as Eucomis Sparkling Burgundy, but it did not become a huge success for more than two decades.
Mr. Avent is the first to admit that he sometimes errs on the side of optimism, particularly when it comes to the cold tolerance of plants. "I consider every plant hardy until I have killed it myself," he said. "At least three times." He claims that Agave Silver Surfer and Acanthus mollis, which have done well in North Carolina, are strong enough to survive colder climates farther north, although some gardeners, including this one, have not had such luck. (I did have more success with the hardier Acanthus hungaricus, which blooms freely in my Zone 6 garden, where the temperature can drop to as low as minus 10; Mr. Avent has it in his display gardens this year.)
Mr. Avent's serious plant collectors, like Mr. Veeder, reject the suggestion that the recent downturn in sales may be a sign that gardening is falling from favor. "Never," he said. "I still think people are longing to connect to each other and feel a sense of belonging." Gardening, he said, "creates an occasion to connect with people." And Mr. Avent, for his part, is grateful for customers like Mr. Veeder, comparing their devotion to the fanaticism of antiques collectors. Still, he points to what he sees as a crucial difference. "I bought an antique chest, and I've watched it all year," he said. "It hasn't grown an inch."

In the Plant Game, Some Bets Are In - New York Times

The Ultimate Brokeback Mountain Guide -- at DaveCullen.com

the future is now, and fuck all you fucked up evangelical christians like tom delay who speaks of the Lord while his corrupt heart accepted millions and golf trips and such shit faced lies, while he calls himself a christian, well so be it now , the new definition of a christian, is "an evil person who uses the name of jesus christ to justify his rich lifestyle while at the same time he hates homosexuals and those that the real jesus christ loved, so be it, let it be known henceforth, a christian, is a liar...like george w bush, tom delay, jerry falwell, and that man that got rich off the seven hundred club, those creeps that wrote the left behind series, and all southern baptist ministers and all persons that claim in the name of christ, to be "CHRISTIANS"

Aquarius: Jan. 20 - Feb. 18 - Horoscope - MSNBC.com

Aquarius
If you're into the arts or sciences, dear Aquarius, sudden inspiration could hit you today to either start or continue a project that means a lot to you. Some friends or members of a group you're affiliated with could pitch in and help out, primarily with useful information. Your mind may be constantly sparking ideas throughout the day. Once you've finished your work, take a walk and clear your head. Then watch a funny video. Otherwise sleep might prove to be elusive tonight!

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4:53 am (5 minutes ago)
as now this body fo mine wakes up at 3am, confused, and i do not know who are what i am

it is cold, i am shaking looking for clothes

it appearx i have won s contest and that contest is the find a wam pari of pants this morning while i rumble around this home
looking for clothes

and i awakre or asleep

something of greeat importance has woken me and i am in search of such item

is this my spiritual april food aneme

i woke up very cold, inmeret searjc fpr sp,e drj [qen

intep: very cold, in search of some warm pants which i can not find, my testicles aere withdrawn up inside mh bodicd

james oes

is this a poem, at three in the morning, i am not of t his world, and found some crachers

i do nt think da is ag=--gfu a ela

i am cold

my stomach hurts

perhaps i should retire back to bed, i must be sel, sleeepwalking

this cookies does not settle my stomach after the last day, yesterday, i belieek , s ees

why am i awake, and i seeem to think i have won some prize and i have toget up to cleim it

some gi rle scouts cookies jurt------ im shaking and nervous and i am out of palce, i wish to vomit

now we have a poem

bear with me though this gastronomical purge

ran to the kitchen, at 4:32 to expel my stomach contents, in my dream state i took my soma, xanax, and pain killer with oranage juice, while my right leg and knees are on fire, feels like satan himself as camped out in my knees

this is not a raving madman episode , james came homeyesterday and yelled at me for leaving his bedroom window open , as its the only way to see yellow cab for my ride to dr jackson at 8am, which went quiet well

so for reasons i dont understand, and as much as i love james, he went into a tryrand as to why i was in his room, i fell asleep, i woke up, and he was gone and i was scared

poem of amusement continues, so bear with me, this is not the normal me

i was so happy to have amy call me yesterday, so i called up james and he said he was with his mother, so i got very depressed and began the process of od ing, but i did not, i kept my wits about me, and my innner voice told me to call douglas, and james was with douglas, not his mom

so i called, apologized for leaving his window open, and he came home,and i went to bed, then at 3 i wake up from a dream with bob barker , yes, the bob barker who wants us all to have our cats spaded and nutred, telling me i has won a million dollars and i must get up now and its in the washsing machine

so then i vomited, i had had a sub form public, nice of james to buy it for me, but i got up and took my regular hourly pi lls, as i could not walk, and put clothes in the dryer as i was freezing cold, my room is a mess be cause for the last two days i have been wasking 123 loads of clothes (LOL), and then i went to bed

so its not 4 40 in the monring, my stomach is empty, and my pain is number ten on a scale of ten, i will eat s cookie and over the next hour take one pill at a time

well dearest james, welcome to my poet dream, we must talk about amy, she is so hap py, she lives in a mansion n cali and i can forward the google map so you can zoom in on it from outer space


i woke up in a dream, took my medication, looked for my treasure (audience can laugh now), and expelled my treasue and subways sub frommy inner being

it is very difficult to vomit when one has dentures, LOLOLOLOL

so i have cleaned up, there was no crisis, james is in the habit of leaving at nights and not telling me where he goes, so i always have a panic attack when he does that

the night before during a movie about king auther, james left for two hours, he did say he would be gone for a few minutes, and two hours later he came home, i managed my anxity then, cause i l ove him and i know the MAKER will not let anything happen to him, so i was not in the lease upset with him, the night before, or last night

i am now going to eat a cookies, take my medications, and figure out a way to start a new form of literature where the main actor, vomits gold every time he misses his old lover, LOLOLOLLOL

my spirits were so uplifted my amy yesterday, she was getting her kids ready for school, so i gave her my new e mail address, and i fully intent to see her in the ner furture

i will send yoiu the google maps and her address so you can see the eden she is living in, she sounded so happy

well that is my story for this early morning, i hope you enjoyed this as much as i did, making fun at myself and , i saved james over 50$ on medications by going to k mart......
and he thinks he can claim me as a benefit on his insurance

as stable as i always am LOLOLOLOL, the call from amy was a start of some major mojo and i look forward to letting the universe open wide, i did mention you and she sends you her love

well it is now ten till five, i no longer feel bob barker woke me up to give me my april days fool gift, perhaps in some other dimension way, vomit is worth more then gold in string theory

love u much, i hope you got a chuckle from this baptisim i had this morning, too bad i was not in the river, i was the river


LOLOLOLOL

may all good things come your way this month and may the universe bring you riches

dave hale zeus

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4:53 am (5 minutes ago)
as now this body fo mine wakes up at 3am, confused, and i do not know who are what i am

it is cold, i am shaking looking for clothes

it appearx i have won s contest and that contest is the find a wam pari of pants this morning while i rumble around this home
looking for clothes

and i awakre or asleep

something of greeat importance has woken me and i am in search of such item

is this my spiritual april food aneme

i woke up very cold, inmeret searjc fpr sp,e drj [qen

intep: very cold, in search of some warm pants which i can not find, my testicles aere withdrawn up inside mh bodicd

james oes

is this a poem, at three in the morning, i am not of t his world, and found some crachers

i do nt think da is ag=--gfu a ela

i am cold

my stomach hurts

perhaps i should retire back to bed, i must be sel, sleeepwalking

this cookies does not settle my stomach after the last day, yesterday, i belieek , s ees

why am i awake, and i seeem to think i have won some prize and i have toget up to cleim it

some gi rle scouts cookies jurt------ im shaking and nervous and i am out of palce, i wish to vomit

now we have a poem

bear with me though this gastronomical purge

ran to the kitchen, at 4:32 to expel my stomach contents, in my dream state i took my soma, xanax, and pain killer with oranage juice, while my right leg and knees are on fire, feels like satan himself as camped out in my knees

this is not a raving madman episode , james came homeyesterday and yelled at me for leaving his bedroom window open , as its the only way to see yellow cab for my ride to dr jackson at 8am, which went quiet well

so for reasons i dont understand, and as much as i love james, he went into a tryrand as to why i was in his room, i fell asleep, i woke up, and he was gone and i was scared

poem of amusement continues, so bear with me, this is not the normal me

i was so happy to have amy call me yesterday, so i called up james and he said he was with his mother, so i got very depressed and began the process of od ing, but i did not, i kept my wits about me, and my innner voice told me to call douglas, and james was with douglas, not his mom

so i called, apologized for leaving his window open, and he came home,and i went to bed, then at 3 i wake up from a dream with bob barker , yes, the bob barker who wants us all to have our cats spaded and nutred, telling me i has won a million dollars and i must get up now and its in the washsing machine

so then i vomited, i had had a sub form public, nice of james to buy it for me, but i got up and took my regular hourly pi lls, as i could not walk, and put clothes in the dryer as i was freezing cold, my room is a mess be cause for the last two days i have been wasking 123 loads of clothes (LOL), and then i went to bed

so its not 4 40 in the monring, my stomach is empty, and my pain is number ten on a scale of ten, i will eat s cookie and over the next hour take one pill at a time

well dearest james, welcome to my poet dream, we must talk about amy, she is so hap py, she lives in a mansion n cali and i can forward the google map so you can zoom in on it from outer space


i woke up in a dream, took my medication, looked for my treasure (audience can laugh now), and expelled my treasue and subways sub frommy inner being

it is very difficult to vomit when one has dentures, LOLOLOLOL

so i have cleaned up, there was no crisis, james is in the habit of leaving at nights and not telling me where he goes, so i always have a panic attack when he does that

the night before during a movie about king auther, james left for two hours, he did say he would be gone for a few minutes, and two hours later he came home, i managed my anxity then, cause i l ove him and i know the MAKER will not let anything happen to him, so i was not in the lease upset with him, the night before, or last night

i am now going to eat a cookies, take my medications, and figure out a way to start a new form of literature where the main actor, vomits gold every time he misses his old lover, LOLOLOLLOL

my spirits were so uplifted my amy yesterday, she was getting her kids ready for school, so i gave her my new e mail address, and i fully intent to see her in the ner furture

i will send yoiu the google maps and her address so you can see the eden she is living in, she sounded so happy

well that is my story for this early morning, i hope you enjoyed this as much as i did, making fun at myself and , i saved james over 50$ on medications by going to k mart......
and he thinks he can claim me as a benefit on his insurance

as stable as i always am LOLOLOLOL, the call from amy was a start of some major mojo and i look forward to letting the universe open wide, i did mention you and she sends you her love

well it is now ten till five, i no longer feel bob barker woke me up to give me my april days fool gift, perhaps in some other dimension way, vomit is worth more then gold in string theory

love u much, i hope you got a chuckle from this baptisim i had this morning, too bad i was not in the river, i was the river


LOLOLOLOL

may all good things come your way this month and may the universe bring you riches

dave hale zeus