"Men never do evil so completely and cheerfully as when they do it from a religious conviction." - Blaise Pascal
Blaise Pascal (1623 - 1662) French mathematician, physicist
French mathematician, physicist, & theologian; developed probability theory; discovered cycloid; inventor of early computing device; stated Pascal's wager
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Dave Hughes
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dear ms teri (and james johnson so he can laugh)\r\n \r\ni am to see my doc next week to go over my blood work, they also did take urine but did not tell me n advance so i do not know what that means, i had not taken any medications of any kind for two week prior to the test, and i dont smoke dope anymore so that wont me on the urine test, i wrote you and i told you that in the test they looked at: \r\n\r\n \r\nhere are the symbols from the blood work paperwork: what does all this mean? \r\n \r\nunder organ/disease panels\r\n10231 COMP METABOLIC PANEL\r\n7600 LIPID PANEL (FASTING SPECIMEN) i fastted for 17 hours\r\n \r\nHEMATOLOGY\r\n6399 CBC w/DIFF (H/H RBC, Indices, WBC, PLT, DIFF)\r\n \r\nOTHER TESTS\r\n899 TSH\r\n5463 UA, COMPLETE (DIPSTICK & MICROSCOPIC)\r\n \r\nand she has added typed:\r\n( ) VAP CHOLESTEROL TEST\r\n \r\nwhy in the world did she want to take urine, and do any of would any of these test tell them my liver is fucked up so i cant take my pain pills any more, i dont like this new doctor, this is the only second time she is seeing me, and she is having me see her assistant, pam, as she , dr shah, is pregnant, and this is the second apt she has canceled on me, i went to see her last friday, and they didnt even call me, and i got there via yellow cab, and pam looked at me like i was nuts, and she told me sr shah was having a baby, and when pam called today, she said she is not yet having the baby, so i dont know what the fuck is going on with these new doctors\r\n",1]
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dear ms teri (and james johnson so he can laugh)
i am to see my doc next week to go over my blood work, they also did take urine but did not tell me n advance so i do not know what that means, i had not taken any medications of any kind for two week prior to the test, and i dont smoke dope anymore so that wont me on the urine test, i wrote you and i told you that in the test they looked at:
here are the symbols from the blood work paperwork: what does all this mean?
under organ/disease panels
10231 COMP METABOLIC PANEL
7600 LIPID PANEL (FASTING SPECIMEN) i fastted for 17 hours
HEMATOLOGY
6399 CBC w/DIFF (H/H RBC, Indices, WBC, PLT, DIFF)
OTHER TESTS
899 TSH
5463 UA, COMPLETE (DIPSTICK & MICROSCOPIC)
and she has added typed:
( ) VAP CHOLESTEROL TEST
why in the world did she want to take urine, and do any of would any of these test tell them my liver is fucked up so i cant take my pain pills any more, i dont like this new doctor, this is the only second time she is seeing me, and she is having me see her assistant, pam, as she , dr shah, is pregnant, and this is the second apt she has canceled on me, i went to see her last friday, and they didnt even call me, and i got there via yellow cab, and pam looked at me like i was nuts, and she told me sr shah was having a baby, and when pam called today, she said she is not yet having the baby, so i dont know what the fuck is going on with these new doctors
\r\n \r\ni also had an x ray of my back, is showed nothing but that i had a bullet, yes, a metal bee bee in my gut, i have no idea how it got there, it must have been in something i ate, and in the next few weeks i get an mri of my back to see what is wrong with my back, and i also am getting x rays and an mri of my knees to see what is going on with them, his name is doctor slomka and i like him a lot, he told me he would do exactly what my doctor of four years is doing, as far as giving me medications to manage my pain, but then he said there was not much he could do for me unless he saw a need for surgery in my back, neck, or knees, \r\n\r\n \r\npinellas county changed their program yesterday, they are mean, i have been able to see doc jackson and pinellas county has been paying for all the medications he prescribes, well as of yesterday, they will no longer pay for any medciations from doctors not in thier program, and doc jackson is not in their program, so i have to talk to my primary care doc, dr shah, and to my orthopeadic doc, doc slomka, to see if they will prescribe me the same medications, and i doubt it, dr shah has met me once, and dr slomka has met me once, so why in hell would they give me vicoden 10mg, xanax .5mg, flexorial, motrin, altace, urocet k for kidney stones, i doubt very much they are gonna help me out at all, i was keeping seeing doc jackson casue he is my main doctor in my disability case, he has known me for over four going on five years, and he knows me well, i have been on vicoden for two years and it is no longer working well, and i have tried more anti inflammatories and all pinellas will pay for is motrin and npraxon, and neither is stopping the pain anymore\r\n\r\n \r\ni call carol today, doc jackson nurse, who knows me real well, we laugh all the time and share personal stories all the time , and i asked her since the vicoden is not longer working does doc jackson ever prescribe oxycodone for degenerative joint pain, she told me to ask him when i see him agiain in 25 days, but i dred it, i really hate having to ask a doctor for a specific medication, it sounds like im a druggey, carol said this was normal, as after a few years vicoden stops working well, but she thought doc jackson does not like to prescribe oxycodone cause of all the media attention\r\n",1]
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i also had an x ray of my back, is showed nothing but that i had a bullet, yes, a metal bee bee in my gut, i have no idea how it got there, it must have been in something i ate, and in the next few weeks i get an mri of my back to see what is wrong with my back, and i also am getting x rays and an mri of my knees to see what is going on with them, his name is doctor slomka and i like him a lot, he told me he would do exactly what my doctor of four years is doing, as far as giving me medications to manage my pain, but then he said there was not much he could do for me unless he saw a need for surgery in my back, neck, or knees,
pinellas county changed their program yesterday, they are mean, i have been able to see doc jackson and pinellas county has been paying for all the medications he prescribes, well as of yesterday, they will no longer pay for any medciations from doctors not in thier program, and doc jackson is not in their program, so i have to talk to my primary care doc, dr shah, and to my orthopeadic doc, doc slomka, to see if they will prescribe me the same medications, and i doubt it, dr shah has met me once, and dr slomka has met me once, so why in hell would they give me vicoden 10mg, xanax .5mg, flexorial, motrin, altace, urocet k for kidney stones, i doubt very much they are gonna help me out at all, i was keeping seeing doc jackson casue he is my main doctor in my disability case, he has known me for over four going on five years, and he knows me well, i have been on vicoden for two years and it is no longer working well, and i have tried more anti inflammatories and all pinellas will pay for is motrin and npraxon, and neither is stopping the pain anymore
i call carol today, doc jackson nurse, who knows me real well, we laugh all the time and share personal stories all the time , and i asked her since the vicoden is not longer working does doc jackson ever prescribe oxycodone for degenerative joint pain, she told me to ask him when i see him agiain in 25 days, but i dred it, i really hate having to ask a doctor for a specific medication, it sounds like im a druggey, carol said this was normal, as after a few years vicoden stops working well, but she thought doc jackson does not like to prescribe oxycodone cause of all the media attention
\r\n \r\nand i know the new doctors with pinellas county, will look at me like im a nut if i ask for that specific drug, i am inclined to keep seeing doc jackson and have james pay for the pain pills and the xanax, pinellas does not pay for xanax anyhow, they are so stuck up, i can get both really cheap at a drug store james and i used to go to before i got enrolled with pinellas, doc jackson used to send me to a really nice pharmacy that does bulk mailing, and the meds that cost 60 bucks at walgreens cost 30 bucks at this bulk pharmacy, and i might just let pinellas pay for the altace, the flexoril, and get samples from doc jackson for the kidney stone medicine, and also let pinellas pay for the motrin, but i really \r\n\r\n \r\nneed oxycodone, but i qeuss im gonna have to settle for vicoden and hurt all the time, the mri s will get done soon and doc jackson will get a copy of them, so that will let all of these doctors finally know what is wrong with my knees, back, and neck, what i am worried about, since i have the worse luck in the world, is that the x rays show nothing, as did the back x ray, and i end up with muscle problems and with my luck none of that will show up on the mri s, i h ope there are other test to finally prove how fucked up i am\r\n\r\n \r\nin the end its r eally important for alll three doctors to find me disabled, and have the proof to show to the administrative law judge in a year, they have a year to present new evidence, and then it takes the judge another six months to determine my case, if he turns me down, i lose all my rent help, but i will still keep seeing doc jackson, and i can appeal my case twice more\r\n\r\n \r\n",1]
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and i know the new doctors with pinellas county, will look at me like im a nut if i ask for that specific drug, i am inclined to keep seeing doc jackson and have james pay for the pain pills and the xanax, pinellas does not pay for xanax anyhow, they are so stuck up, i can get both really cheap at a drug store james and i used to go to before i got enrolled with pinellas, doc jackson used to send me to a really nice pharmacy that does bulk mailing, and the meds that cost 60 bucks at walgreens cost 30 bucks at this bulk pharmacy, and i might just let pinellas pay for the altace, the flexoril, and get samples from doc jackson for the kidney stone medicine, and also let pinellas pay for the motrin, but i really
need oxycodone, but i qeuss im gonna have to settle for vicoden and hurt all the time, the mri s will get done soon and doc jackson will get a copy of them, so that will let all of these doctors finally know what is wrong with my knees, back, and neck, what i am worried about, since i have the worse luck in the world, is that the x rays show nothing, as did the back x ray, and i end up with muscle problems and with my luck none of that will show up on the mri s, i h ope there are other test to finally prove how fucked up i am
in the end its r eally important for alll three doctors to find me disabled, and have the proof to show to the administrative law judge in a year, they have a year to present new evidence, and then it takes the judge another six months to determine my case, if he turns me down, i lose all my rent help, but i will still keep seeing doc jackson, and i can appeal my case twice more
\r\n \r\ni am so scared dr shah and dr slomka will find nothing wrong with me with the x rays and the mris, all i know is the pain just gets worse and worse, i dont sleep anymore, for gods name i need a wheelchair, and i cant stand doctors that have only met me once , how in the world can they form an opionion as to how much pain i am in when they only see me a few times...... doc jackson has seen me every 25 days since octorber of 2002, he said the x rays from the workers comp doc done in jan of 2002, showed osteoarthritis, and he saw that when none of the other workers comp doctors could see that, doc jackson is a \r\nD.O., what i dont get is why tons of doctors saw nothing in the x ray with my knees, when the first time doc jackson saw them he said he saw degenerative joint disease from the spacing of the knee joints in the x rays, where the workers comp doctors just ignoring that and fucing me over for over a year?\r\n\r\n \r\ni keep trying to change doctors, as i dont like dr shah, and i can change doctor three times, but all the primary care doctors with the pinellas managed health care have closed panels, so none of them are accepting any new clients, ie , they are good doctors, and i am left with the bad ones\r\n\r\n \r\nmy first case manager, gary, told me doctor sadhaha shah did not like prescribing pain medications unless the client had cancer or was bleeding to death in front of her, and she is the only doctor that was left for me, and i have to deal with her, the first thing she told me when i first met her was:\r\n",1]
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the pain in my knees is so much worse, i can no longer put any weight on my right knee as of august 31, i did something in my room bending over to turn off the fan, and the knee popped and cracked and know i cant put any weight on it at all, i have to use crutuches to use the bathroom now
i am so scared dr shah and dr slomka will find nothing wrong with me with the x rays and the mris, all i know is the pain just gets worse and worse, i dont sleep anymore, for gods name i need a wheelchair, and i cant stand doctors that have only met me once , how in the world can they form an opionion as to how much pain i am in when they only see me a few times...... doc jackson has seen me every 25 days since octorber of 2002, he said the x rays from the workers comp doc done in jan of 2002, showed osteoarthritis, and he saw that when none of the other workers comp doctors could see that, doc jackson is a D.O., what i dont get is why tons of doctors saw nothing in the x ray with my knees, when the first time doc jackson saw them he said he saw degenerative joint disease from the spacing of the knee joints in the x rays, where the workers comp doctors just ignoring that and fucing me over for over a year?
i keep trying to change doctors, as i dont like dr shah, and i can change doctor three times, but all the primary care doctors with the pinellas managed health care have closed panels, so none of them are accepting any new clients, ie , they are good doctors, and i am left with the bad ones
my first case manager, gary, told me doctor sadhaha shah did not like prescribing pain medications unless the client had cancer or was bleeding to death in front of her, and she is the only doctor that was left for me, and i have to deal with her, the first thing she told me when i first met her was:
\r\n \r\n"you do not need to keep seeing doctor jackson"........i just shit, but i didnt let her know what i was feeling, i really think she was playing games with me, the bitch.\r\n\r\n \r\n i was just dumbfounded, and did not respond to her, when i met dr slomka, the orthopeadic surgeon dr shah referred me too, he said, not just once, but twice, that he would do EXACTLY the same thing doc jackson is doing to manage my pain but that he could not do must else for me unless he saw a need for surgery, so there i have two doctors telling me oppostite things, \r\n\r\n \r\ni later wrote dr shah a letter saying gary my first case manager said it was okay and logical for me to keep seeing doctor jackson as long as i had a sponsor who pays for him (james griffin), and that it was important to see him becasue he is the very doctor that told me to file for disability in the first case, why in the world would dr shah tell me to stop seeing doc jackson, it makes no sense\r\n\r\n \r\nnow they are getting their way, i think on purpose they passed this new law, so they no longer have to pay for doc jacksons medciatons, and they have been paying for all of them for a total of a year now, so now she is forcing me to turn to her to get my medicationa paid for, and so she can f uck with me and my pain medications, no one even told me about the changes, when i renewed my case on friday, there were orange signs everywhere in all the offices, that said pinellas county would no longer pay for meds from doctors not on their list, my very own case manager never even said one word to me, so i talked to the girl that took my picture, and she told me to try to sign up with her doctor, who gives out pain pills, but low and behold, under the doctors name, it says "closed panel, not accepting any new clients", i really think pinellas county has done this on purpose, cause i was the only one who keep seeing my doctor and they paid for my meds, i really think dr shah got in an uproar and had them change the rules, just to fuck with me......noneof the other clients have sponsors who pay for thier own doctors, they are all so poor they have to settle for the pinellas primary care doctor and do what they have to do, i am the only one with a sponsor and gary, my fisrst case manager said that was okay, but now dr shah doenst like me seeing doc jackson, she hasnt even called him for his medical records, and that is fucked up, the first thing she should have done is get my five years of medial records so she would know what is goingon with me, but to this date, doc jackson has not heard one word from her, what a bitch\r\n",1]
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"you do not need to keep seeing doctor jackson"........i just shit, but i didnt let her know what i was feeling, i really think she was playing games with me, the bitch.
i was just dumbfounded, and did not respond to her, when i met dr slomka, the orthopeadic surgeon dr shah referred me too, he said, not just once, but twice, that he would do EXACTLY the same thing doc jackson is doing to manage my pain but that he could not do must else for me unless he saw a need for surgery, so there i have two doctors telling me oppostite things,
i later wrote dr shah a letter saying gary my first case manager said it was okay and logical for me to keep seeing doctor jackson as long as i had a sponsor who pays for him (james griffin), and that it was important to see him becasue he is the very doctor that told me to file for disability in the first case, why in the world would dr shah tell me to stop seeing doc jackson, it makes no sense
now they are getting their way, i think on purpose they passed this new law, so they no longer have to pay for doc jacksons medciatons, and they have been paying for all of them for a total of a year now, so now she is forcing me to turn to her to get my medicationa paid for, and so she can f uck with me and my pain medications, no one even told me about the changes, when i renewed my case on friday, there were orange signs everywhere in all the offices, that said pinellas county would no longer pay for meds from doctors not on their list, my very own case manager never even said one word to me, so i talked to the girl that took my picture, and she told me to try to sign up with her doctor, who gives out pain pills, but low and behold, under the doctors name, it says "closed panel, not accepting any new clients", i really think pinellas county has done this on purpose, cause i was the only one who keep seeing my doctor and they paid for my meds, i really think dr shah got in an uproar and had them change the rules, just to fuck with me......noneof the other clients have sponsors who pay for thier own doctors, they are all so poor they have to settle for the pinellas primary care doctor and do what they have to do, i am the only one with a sponsor and gary, my fisrst case manager said that was okay, but now dr shah doenst like me seeing doc jackson, she hasnt even called him for his medical records, and that is fucked up, the first thing she should have done is get my five years of medial records so she would know what is goingon with me, but to this date, doc jackson has not heard one word from her, what a bitch
\r\n \r\nlittle does she know how much j ames cares for me, that fromday one he paid for doc jackson at 55$ every 25 days and most of my medications, cause i can pay him $270 for rent from the pinellas program for the past year and for two more years, so james does not mind that\r\n\r\n \r\ni am so tired of having doctors with attitude fuck with me, i have been nice and professional, and dr shah an dr slomka have no idea i dont like dr shah, i really do like dr slomka, he understood from day one how much pain i was in, i was in his office for two hours, i had taken NONE of my pain medications as to not\r\n\r\nhide my symptoms, so he took x rays with me standing up, and i had to walk a lot with my walker and ice, and i was just in so much pain, i did not cry, but i could tell he could tell how much i hurt, i told him i was bedridden allthe time now, and tthats the truth, i am in bed all the time now here at home, i cant walk, i cant stand, and i cant sit for longer then 20 minutes in a chair or in a cab, and then i have to lay down on ice packs while i cry moan, and wish i was dead\r\n\r\n \r\ngod i wish i could get oxycodone, it would make my life so much easier, but i think im not gonna ask doc jackson yet until he gets the x rays and the mri s, and go from there, the bones in my knees are just falling apart, when i lay down in bed the knnee caps move and crack and it hurts like hell, i try to sleep with pillows between each knee, but that hurts too, i cant sleep on my back as that makes the spine get inflammed and hurts more, ice helps that a lot, but im dumfounded, as the x rays of my back didnt show anything to dr slomka, so what the hell is wrong with my back.\r\n",1]
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little does she know how much j ames cares for me, that fromday one he paid for doc jackson at 55$ every 25 days and most of my medications, cause i can pay him $270 for rent from the pinellas program for the past year and for two more years, so james does not mind that
i am so tired of having doctors with attitude fuck with me, i have been nice and professional, and dr shah an dr slomka have no idea i dont like dr shah, i really do like dr slomka, he understood from day one how much pain i was in, i was in his office for two hours, i had taken NONE of my pain medications as to not
hide my symptoms, so he took x rays with me standing up, and i had to walk a lot with my walker and ice, and i was just in so much pain, i did not cry, but i could tell he could tell how much i hurt, i told him i was bedridden allthe time now, and tthats the truth, i am in bed all the time now here at home, i cant walk, i cant stand, and i cant sit for longer then 20 minutes in a chair or in a cab, and then i have to lay down on ice packs while i cry moan, and wish i was dead
god i wish i could get oxycodone, it would make my life so much easier, but i think im not gonna ask doc jackson yet until he gets the x rays and the mri s, and go from there, the bones in my knees are just falling apart, when i lay down in bed the knnee caps move and crack and it hurts like hell, i try to sleep with pillows between each knee, but that hurts too, i cant sleep on my back as that makes the spine get inflammed and hurts more, ice helps that a lot, but im dumfounded, as the x rays of my back didnt show anything to dr slomka, so what the hell is wrong with my back.
\r\nlove u, thanks for listening, can you at least reaspond as to what they are going to find in my urine and my blood work on the 5th , in two weeks, are they gonna tell me i cant take pain pills anymore, or are they gonna tell me my cholestoral is high, that would be no big deal, but i cant have kidney trouble, i have to be able to keep taking pain pills, or i am going to kills myself for sure, no doubt about it. no doubt about it at all. \r\n\r\n \r\nlov eu, and i misss hearing from you , did u get stuck in that hurrience, i have left my aol im on 24 hours a day listening for you to enter the room, but u must be busy, i miss u, and will send u more flexoril when i figure out what these stupid doctors are gonna do with my meds\r\n\r\n \r\nwhen the next two years are over, i am gooing to complain somehow about doc shah, and how she told me to stop seeing doc jackson but she did not prescribe any medications when she told me to stop seeing him, my blood pressure was sky high the first time i saw her, and she knew all the meds i took, and she didnt prescribe a single med, and i left her to think i was not seeing him anymore, and for two months she did not call me to prescribe any medicatiions of any kind\r\n\r\n \r\nso at that point i wrote her aand told here i had to keep seeing dr jackson, and then one month later, they change the rules and they no longer will pay for any medciations from doc jackson, now that sounds personal to me, so she can fuck with me, i hate doctors who enjoy seeing clients in pain\r\n\r\n \r\ni have been nice to her from day one, i did not offer her any attitude, i was as kind as kind can be, i asked her to refer me to an orthopeadic surgeon for m;y knees, and what did she do, the only and first thing she did, was refer me to doctor slomka a REFERRAL FOR MY BACK AND NECK, NOT FOR MY KNEES<>
love u, thanks for listening, can you at least reaspond as to what they are going to find in my urine and my blood work on the 5th , in two weeks, are they gonna tell me i cant take pain pills anymore, or are they gonna tell me my cholestoral is high, that would be no big deal, but i cant have kidney trouble, i have to be able to keep taking pain pills, or i am going to kills myself for sure, no doubt about it. no doubt about it at all.
lov eu, and i misss hearing from you , did u get stuck in that hurrience, i have left my aol im on 24 hours a day listening for you to enter the room, but u must be busy, i miss u, and will send u more flexoril when i figure out what these stupid doctors are gonna do with my meds
when the next two years are over, i am gooing to complain somehow about doc shah, and how she told me to stop seeing doc jackson but she did not prescribe any medications when she told me to stop seeing him, my blood pressure was sky high the first time i saw her, and she knew all the meds i took, and she didnt prescribe a single med, and i left her to think i was not seeing him anymore, and for two months she did not call me to prescribe any medicatiions of any kind
so at that point i wrote her aand told here i had to keep seeing dr jackson, and then one month later, they change the rules and they no longer will pay for any medciations from doc jackson, now that sounds personal to me, so she can fuck with me, i hate doctors who enjoy seeing clients in pain
i have been nice to her from day one, i did not offer her any attitude, i was as kind as kind can be, i asked her to refer me to an orthopeadic surgeon for m;y knees, and what did she do, the only and first thing she did, was refer me to doctor slomka a REFERRAL FOR MY BACK AND NECK, NOT FOR MY KNEES<>
i have a year or two with this program, and i am going to change to another primary care physicain no matter what i do, i am going to write all of the primary care doctors who have closed panels, i am going to tell them about my situation and how m uch help i need, i will not bad mouth her, but i will wirte and write, until i find someoine with compassion, i really want dr koser, who is a D.O., like my doc jackson, they told me to call back in oct to see if he has an opeinging, as i have done every month since dec of 2004, but i am going to write him a letter, in the hopes he will take my case, let me still see dr slomka, and refer me to a urologist for my kidney stones, and to a heart specialsit as i have high bl ood pressure and my heart rate always is beating too fast, my heart rate has beated fast for over seven years now, every time they measure my heart rate its fast,
back in 2003, when i was supposed to do a vocational rehab test to see if i could work for workers comp, a test that was gonna cost kids in distress 700 bucks, my heart rate was so high they could not do the test, and they got out of doing the test casue they settled my case the next week and gave me 5000 bucks, the altack lowers my blood pressure, but even last month when carol took my heart rate, it was real fast, i rally think im gonna go out the way my dear grandfather went, he has a massive heart attack, or the way nana went, with strokes, i would prefer to go out with one big massive heart attack, so i could be your angel and james angel, moms angel, and help out all my firends,
i would prefer to get all this under control, get disabiilty and do my ceramcis and make some money, but if i get turned down, as i was told today that clients with bachlors get turned down all the time by disability judges, i had a lady tell me today over the phone, that the disability judges are "mean" if you have a bachlors and they will turn you down, she told me to take a vocational rehab test and make sure i fail it, so i have an orientation in a few months to do thhis rehab thing, to see if i can work, i am gonna go with my walker, take no pain pills, and fail the test, she was reallfy nice, but she siad judges consider disabled persons with bachlor degrees smart enuff that they can work no matter what, isnt that somehting
\r\n \r\ngod keeps turning me on to all these insiders, that tell me things i need to know in dealing with the hearing judges, he name was Janeth Colan, a social worker 2, alternative benfit specialsit who works in my case managers officer, he told me to go to the vocational rehab departmetn and see if they turn me down in the test, she toldme to make an appt with their counselor, go to an orientation at 3pm on every thursday, at 2735 whitney road, she said it was a work program and was made to get people back to work, but she said it would be smart of me to go there and act like i wanted to get back to work, since i am disabled and have a hearing in a year, and that i have a bachlors in socilogoy from stetson and that i was a kids counselor for many years, that i was 50 years old. and Janeth told me to go ther adn if i failed and they said i could not work it would help me in my case with the administratiave law judge, as she said some of the judges are mean and if someone (her words) has a bachelors they wont find them disabled no natter what, even though i can not walk, sit, or stand, so meeting her today and talking to her\r\n\r\non the phone today is another one of those blessings from god, or my angels....its funny how more and more of these strangers come to my attention out of the blue to help me, \r\n\r\n \r\nso if worse comes to worse, and i dont get disabled, i am going to see if dr slomka can do knee surgery and i will try to start with substitute teaching, cause that was my orignial plan in fort lauderdale anyhow, and i would go back to school, somehow get f unding, so i could teach art in elementary school, no more bad kids for me, but starting with substitute teaching, would get me in the door, and i might even be able to do that in a wheelchair\r\n",1]
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god keeps turning me on to all these insiders, that tell me things i need to know in dealing with the hearing judges, he name was Janeth Colan, a social worker 2, alternative benfit specialsit who works in my case managers officer, he told me to go to the vocational rehab departmetn and see if they turn me down in the test, she toldme to make an appt with their counselor, go to an orientation at 3pm on every thursday, at 2735 whitney road, she said it was a work program and was made to get people back to work, but she said it would be smart of me to go there and act like i wanted to get back to work, since i am disabled and have a hearing in a year, and that i have a bachlors in socilogoy from stetson and that i was a kids counselor for many years, that i was 50 years old. and Janeth told me to go ther adn if i failed and they said i could not work it would help me in my case with the administratiave law judge, as she said some of the judges are mean and if someone (her words) has a bachelors they wont find them disabled no natter what, even though i can not walk, sit, or stand, so meeting her today and talking to her
on the phone today is another one of those blessings from god, or my angels....its funny how more and more of these strangers come to my attention out of the blue to help me,
so if worse comes to worse, and i dont get disabled, i am going to see if dr slomka can do knee surgery and i will try to start with substitute teaching, cause that was my orignial plan in fort lauderdale anyhow, and i would go back to school, somehow get f unding, so i could teach art in elementary school, no more bad kids for me, but starting with substitute teaching, would get me in the door, and i might even be able to do that in a wheelchair
\r\nim just gonna cover all my basis, the pinellas program says in their paperwork, they will either fix me and get me back to work, or help me with my disability case, and in both instances, i will be responsible for payingthem back the $270 per month rent they give me, and that if i win my case, my lawyer (who i dont really like but its too late to change him, i looked into it, and im stuck with him, but he does know the local judges here and he is local), he will get %25 of my lump sum payment and/or $5300, my lump sum payment is figured from when my workers comp lawyer filed my case, so that was dec of 2000 to present day, at i thingk 700 bucks per month, so that total would go into a bank account, the lawyer gets his first amount, and the pinellas county gets theirs, and im told usually not much is left, but what they cant touch is my ssi, which is the monthly amount i will get to live on for the rest of my life, which is a horrible $740 per month, food stamps, some kind of help with housing, medicare, some kind of mobility device, so i can have some kind of one of those things you see old people driving around at the grand canyon OLOLLLOLOL\r\n\r\n \r\n \r\ni would still see doc jackson, but someday he will die, and then medicare or some sort will give me a doctor, pay for my meds, unless george w bush fucks with that, and that is what he is trying to do know\r\n\r\n \r\nbut at least by that time, i wont have any bones in my knees, my spine will be shot to hell, i will be on major pain pills, i will be living in a mobil home, or as james griffin says, i will be living with him, with a ceramic studio and doing my art work\r\n\r\n ",1]
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im just gonna cover all my basis, the pinellas program says in their paperwork, they will either fix me and get me back to work, or help me with my disability case, and in both instances, i will be responsible for payingthem back the $270 per month rent they give me, and that if i win my case, my lawyer (who i dont really like but its too late to change him, i looked into it, and im stuck with him, but he does know the local judges here and he is local), he will get %25 of my lump sum payment and/or $5300, my lump sum payment is figured from when my workers comp lawyer filed my case, so that was dec of 2000 to present day, at i thingk 700 bucks per month, so that total would go into a bank account, the lawyer gets his first amount, and the pinellas county gets theirs, and im told usually not much is left, but what they cant touch is my ssi, which is the monthly amount i will get to live on for the rest of my life, which is a horrible $740 per month, food stamps, some kind of help with housing, medicare, some kind of mobility device, so i can have some kind of one of those things you see old people driving around at the grand canyon OLOLLLOLOL
i would still see doc jackson, but someday he will die, and then medicare or some sort will give me a doctor, pay for my meds, unless george w bush fucks with that, and that is what he is trying to do know
but at least by that time, i wont have any bones in my knees, my spine will be shot to hell, i will be on major pain pills, i will be living in a mobil home, or as james griffin says, i will be living with him, with a ceramic studio and doing my art work
or i will have drivin my wonderful mobility device off the grand canyon, "od" on pills, or jumped out of a plane with a parachut and landed in that island in the tv movie \'LOST", where my knees will by a miracle started working again, i will hunt wild bore and feed the other stranded plane persons, or i will be fighting that unknown beast in the woods, or i will be living down in the "hutch". listening to records and living deep underground under that island of mystery, or .......\r\n\r\n \r\n \r\ni will have a ceramic studio at st pete clay company in downtown st pete, in florida, with 24 hour access, with my wheelchair, and i will be making crosses and stuff that will make me famous, and for once in my life, my last and one dream will come true.\r\n\r\n \r\n \r\n \r\n \r\n \r\nlove u, and i miss you, did you see any thing in the devils triangle?\r\ndid you see tommy locke while you where down there, he has been around me these days, he is one of my angels you know.\r\n \r\n-- dave hughes \r\n\r\n",0]
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or i will have drivin my wonderful mobility device off the grand canyon, "od" on pills, or jumped out of a plane with a parachut and landed in that island in the tv movie 'LOST", where my knees will by a miracle started working again, i will hunt wild bore and feed the other stranded plane persons, or i will be fighting that unknown beast in the woods, or i will be living down in the "hutch". listening to records and living deep underground under that island of mystery, or .......
i will have a ceramic studio at st pete clay company in downtown st pete, in florida, with 24 hour access, with my wheelchair, and i will be making crosses and stuff that will make me famous, and for once in my life, my last and one dream will come true.
love u, and i miss you, did you see any thing in the devils triangle?
did you see tommy locke while you where down there, he has been around me these days, he is one of my angels you know.
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dear ms teri (and james johnson so he can laugh)\r\n \r\ni am to see my doc next week to go over my blood work, they also did take urine but did not tell me n advance so i do not know what that means, i had not taken any medications of any kind for two week prior to the test, and i dont smoke dope anymore so that wont me on the urine test, i wrote you and i told you that in the test they looked at: \r\n\r\n \r\nhere are the symbols from the blood work paperwork: what does all this mean? \r\n \r\nunder organ/disease panels\r\n10231 COMP METABOLIC PANEL\r\n7600 LIPID PANEL (FASTING SPECIMEN) i fastted for 17 hours\r\n \r\nHEMATOLOGY\r\n6399 CBC w/DIFF (H/H RBC, Indices, WBC, PLT, DIFF)\r\n \r\nOTHER TESTS\r\n899 TSH\r\n5463 UA, COMPLETE (DIPSTICK & MICROSCOPIC)\r\n \r\nand she has added typed:\r\n( ) VAP CHOLESTEROL TEST\r\n \r\nwhy in the world did she want to take urine, and do any of would any of these test tell them my liver is fucked up so i cant take my pain pills any more, i dont like this new doctor, this is the only second time she is seeing me, and she is having me see her assistant, pam, as she , dr shah, is pregnant, and this is the second apt she has canceled on me, i went to see her last friday, and they didnt even call me, and i got there via yellow cab, and pam looked at me like i was nuts, and she told me sr shah was having a baby, and when pam called today, she said she is not yet having the baby, so i dont know what the fuck is going on with these new doctors\r\n",1]
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dear ms teri (and james johnson so he can laugh)
i am to see my doc next week to go over my blood work, they also did take urine but did not tell me n advance so i do not know what that means, i had not taken any medications of any kind for two week prior to the test, and i dont smoke dope anymore so that wont me on the urine test, i wrote you and i told you that in the test they looked at:
here are the symbols from the blood work paperwork: what does all this mean?
under organ/disease panels
10231 COMP METABOLIC PANEL
7600 LIPID PANEL (FASTING SPECIMEN) i fastted for 17 hours
HEMATOLOGY
6399 CBC w/DIFF (H/H RBC, Indices, WBC, PLT, DIFF)
OTHER TESTS
899 TSH
5463 UA, COMPLETE (DIPSTICK & MICROSCOPIC)
and she has added typed:
( ) VAP CHOLESTEROL TEST
why in the world did she want to take urine, and do any of would any of these test tell them my liver is fucked up so i cant take my pain pills any more, i dont like this new doctor, this is the only second time she is seeing me, and she is having me see her assistant, pam, as she , dr shah, is pregnant, and this is the second apt she has canceled on me, i went to see her last friday, and they didnt even call me, and i got there via yellow cab, and pam looked at me like i was nuts, and she told me sr shah was having a baby, and when pam called today, she said she is not yet having the baby, so i dont know what the fuck is going on with these new doctors
\r\n \r\ni also had an x ray of my back, is showed nothing but that i had a bullet, yes, a metal bee bee in my gut, i have no idea how it got there, it must have been in something i ate, and in the next few weeks i get an mri of my back to see what is wrong with my back, and i also am getting x rays and an mri of my knees to see what is going on with them, his name is doctor slomka and i like him a lot, he told me he would do exactly what my doctor of four years is doing, as far as giving me medications to manage my pain, but then he said there was not much he could do for me unless he saw a need for surgery in my back, neck, or knees, \r\n\r\n \r\npinellas county changed their program yesterday, they are mean, i have been able to see doc jackson and pinellas county has been paying for all the medications he prescribes, well as of yesterday, they will no longer pay for any medciations from doctors not in thier program, and doc jackson is not in their program, so i have to talk to my primary care doc, dr shah, and to my orthopeadic doc, doc slomka, to see if they will prescribe me the same medications, and i doubt it, dr shah has met me once, and dr slomka has met me once, so why in hell would they give me vicoden 10mg, xanax .5mg, flexorial, motrin, altace, urocet k for kidney stones, i doubt very much they are gonna help me out at all, i was keeping seeing doc jackson casue he is my main doctor in my disability case, he has known me for over four going on five years, and he knows me well, i have been on vicoden for two years and it is no longer working well, and i have tried more anti inflammatories and all pinellas will pay for is motrin and npraxon, and neither is stopping the pain anymore\r\n\r\n \r\ni call carol today, doc jackson nurse, who knows me real well, we laugh all the time and share personal stories all the time , and i asked her since the vicoden is not longer working does doc jackson ever prescribe oxycodone for degenerative joint pain, she told me to ask him when i see him agiain in 25 days, but i dred it, i really hate having to ask a doctor for a specific medication, it sounds like im a druggey, carol said this was normal, as after a few years vicoden stops working well, but she thought doc jackson does not like to prescribe oxycodone cause of all the media attention\r\n",1]
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i also had an x ray of my back, is showed nothing but that i had a bullet, yes, a metal bee bee in my gut, i have no idea how it got there, it must have been in something i ate, and in the next few weeks i get an mri of my back to see what is wrong with my back, and i also am getting x rays and an mri of my knees to see what is going on with them, his name is doctor slomka and i like him a lot, he told me he would do exactly what my doctor of four years is doing, as far as giving me medications to manage my pain, but then he said there was not much he could do for me unless he saw a need for surgery in my back, neck, or knees,
pinellas county changed their program yesterday, they are mean, i have been able to see doc jackson and pinellas county has been paying for all the medications he prescribes, well as of yesterday, they will no longer pay for any medciations from doctors not in thier program, and doc jackson is not in their program, so i have to talk to my primary care doc, dr shah, and to my orthopeadic doc, doc slomka, to see if they will prescribe me the same medications, and i doubt it, dr shah has met me once, and dr slomka has met me once, so why in hell would they give me vicoden 10mg, xanax .5mg, flexorial, motrin, altace, urocet k for kidney stones, i doubt very much they are gonna help me out at all, i was keeping seeing doc jackson casue he is my main doctor in my disability case, he has known me for over four going on five years, and he knows me well, i have been on vicoden for two years and it is no longer working well, and i have tried more anti inflammatories and all pinellas will pay for is motrin and npraxon, and neither is stopping the pain anymore
i call carol today, doc jackson nurse, who knows me real well, we laugh all the time and share personal stories all the time , and i asked her since the vicoden is not longer working does doc jackson ever prescribe oxycodone for degenerative joint pain, she told me to ask him when i see him agiain in 25 days, but i dred it, i really hate having to ask a doctor for a specific medication, it sounds like im a druggey, carol said this was normal, as after a few years vicoden stops working well, but she thought doc jackson does not like to prescribe oxycodone cause of all the media attention
\r\n \r\nand i know the new doctors with pinellas county, will look at me like im a nut if i ask for that specific drug, i am inclined to keep seeing doc jackson and have james pay for the pain pills and the xanax, pinellas does not pay for xanax anyhow, they are so stuck up, i can get both really cheap at a drug store james and i used to go to before i got enrolled with pinellas, doc jackson used to send me to a really nice pharmacy that does bulk mailing, and the meds that cost 60 bucks at walgreens cost 30 bucks at this bulk pharmacy, and i might just let pinellas pay for the altace, the flexoril, and get samples from doc jackson for the kidney stone medicine, and also let pinellas pay for the motrin, but i really \r\n\r\n \r\nneed oxycodone, but i qeuss im gonna have to settle for vicoden and hurt all the time, the mri s will get done soon and doc jackson will get a copy of them, so that will let all of these doctors finally know what is wrong with my knees, back, and neck, what i am worried about, since i have the worse luck in the world, is that the x rays show nothing, as did the back x ray, and i end up with muscle problems and with my luck none of that will show up on the mri s, i h ope there are other test to finally prove how fucked up i am\r\n\r\n \r\nin the end its r eally important for alll three doctors to find me disabled, and have the proof to show to the administrative law judge in a year, they have a year to present new evidence, and then it takes the judge another six months to determine my case, if he turns me down, i lose all my rent help, but i will still keep seeing doc jackson, and i can appeal my case twice more\r\n\r\n \r\n",1]
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and i know the new doctors with pinellas county, will look at me like im a nut if i ask for that specific drug, i am inclined to keep seeing doc jackson and have james pay for the pain pills and the xanax, pinellas does not pay for xanax anyhow, they are so stuck up, i can get both really cheap at a drug store james and i used to go to before i got enrolled with pinellas, doc jackson used to send me to a really nice pharmacy that does bulk mailing, and the meds that cost 60 bucks at walgreens cost 30 bucks at this bulk pharmacy, and i might just let pinellas pay for the altace, the flexoril, and get samples from doc jackson for the kidney stone medicine, and also let pinellas pay for the motrin, but i really
need oxycodone, but i qeuss im gonna have to settle for vicoden and hurt all the time, the mri s will get done soon and doc jackson will get a copy of them, so that will let all of these doctors finally know what is wrong with my knees, back, and neck, what i am worried about, since i have the worse luck in the world, is that the x rays show nothing, as did the back x ray, and i end up with muscle problems and with my luck none of that will show up on the mri s, i h ope there are other test to finally prove how fucked up i am
in the end its r eally important for alll three doctors to find me disabled, and have the proof to show to the administrative law judge in a year, they have a year to present new evidence, and then it takes the judge another six months to determine my case, if he turns me down, i lose all my rent help, but i will still keep seeing doc jackson, and i can appeal my case twice more
\r\n \r\ni am so scared dr shah and dr slomka will find nothing wrong with me with the x rays and the mris, all i know is the pain just gets worse and worse, i dont sleep anymore, for gods name i need a wheelchair, and i cant stand doctors that have only met me once , how in the world can they form an opionion as to how much pain i am in when they only see me a few times...... doc jackson has seen me every 25 days since octorber of 2002, he said the x rays from the workers comp doc done in jan of 2002, showed osteoarthritis, and he saw that when none of the other workers comp doctors could see that, doc jackson is a \r\nD.O., what i dont get is why tons of doctors saw nothing in the x ray with my knees, when the first time doc jackson saw them he said he saw degenerative joint disease from the spacing of the knee joints in the x rays, where the workers comp doctors just ignoring that and fucing me over for over a year?\r\n\r\n \r\ni keep trying to change doctors, as i dont like dr shah, and i can change doctor three times, but all the primary care doctors with the pinellas managed health care have closed panels, so none of them are accepting any new clients, ie , they are good doctors, and i am left with the bad ones\r\n\r\n \r\nmy first case manager, gary, told me doctor sadhaha shah did not like prescribing pain medications unless the client had cancer or was bleeding to death in front of her, and she is the only doctor that was left for me, and i have to deal with her, the first thing she told me when i first met her was:\r\n",1]
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the pain in my knees is so much worse, i can no longer put any weight on my right knee as of august 31, i did something in my room bending over to turn off the fan, and the knee popped and cracked and know i cant put any weight on it at all, i have to use crutuches to use the bathroom now
i am so scared dr shah and dr slomka will find nothing wrong with me with the x rays and the mris, all i know is the pain just gets worse and worse, i dont sleep anymore, for gods name i need a wheelchair, and i cant stand doctors that have only met me once , how in the world can they form an opionion as to how much pain i am in when they only see me a few times...... doc jackson has seen me every 25 days since octorber of 2002, he said the x rays from the workers comp doc done in jan of 2002, showed osteoarthritis, and he saw that when none of the other workers comp doctors could see that, doc jackson is a D.O., what i dont get is why tons of doctors saw nothing in the x ray with my knees, when the first time doc jackson saw them he said he saw degenerative joint disease from the spacing of the knee joints in the x rays, where the workers comp doctors just ignoring that and fucing me over for over a year?
i keep trying to change doctors, as i dont like dr shah, and i can change doctor three times, but all the primary care doctors with the pinellas managed health care have closed panels, so none of them are accepting any new clients, ie , they are good doctors, and i am left with the bad ones
my first case manager, gary, told me doctor sadhaha shah did not like prescribing pain medications unless the client had cancer or was bleeding to death in front of her, and she is the only doctor that was left for me, and i have to deal with her, the first thing she told me when i first met her was:
\r\n \r\n"you do not need to keep seeing doctor jackson"........i just shit, but i didnt let her know what i was feeling, i really think she was playing games with me, the bitch.\r\n\r\n \r\n i was just dumbfounded, and did not respond to her, when i met dr slomka, the orthopeadic surgeon dr shah referred me too, he said, not just once, but twice, that he would do EXACTLY the same thing doc jackson is doing to manage my pain but that he could not do must else for me unless he saw a need for surgery, so there i have two doctors telling me oppostite things, \r\n\r\n \r\ni later wrote dr shah a letter saying gary my first case manager said it was okay and logical for me to keep seeing doctor jackson as long as i had a sponsor who pays for him (james griffin), and that it was important to see him becasue he is the very doctor that told me to file for disability in the first case, why in the world would dr shah tell me to stop seeing doc jackson, it makes no sense\r\n\r\n \r\nnow they are getting their way, i think on purpose they passed this new law, so they no longer have to pay for doc jacksons medciatons, and they have been paying for all of them for a total of a year now, so now she is forcing me to turn to her to get my medicationa paid for, and so she can f uck with me and my pain medications, no one even told me about the changes, when i renewed my case on friday, there were orange signs everywhere in all the offices, that said pinellas county would no longer pay for meds from doctors not on their list, my very own case manager never even said one word to me, so i talked to the girl that took my picture, and she told me to try to sign up with her doctor, who gives out pain pills, but low and behold, under the doctors name, it says "closed panel, not accepting any new clients", i really think pinellas county has done this on purpose, cause i was the only one who keep seeing my doctor and they paid for my meds, i really think dr shah got in an uproar and had them change the rules, just to fuck with me......noneof the other clients have sponsors who pay for thier own doctors, they are all so poor they have to settle for the pinellas primary care doctor and do what they have to do, i am the only one with a sponsor and gary, my fisrst case manager said that was okay, but now dr shah doenst like me seeing doc jackson, she hasnt even called him for his medical records, and that is fucked up, the first thing she should have done is get my five years of medial records so she would know what is goingon with me, but to this date, doc jackson has not heard one word from her, what a bitch\r\n",1]
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"you do not need to keep seeing doctor jackson"........i just shit, but i didnt let her know what i was feeling, i really think she was playing games with me, the bitch.
i was just dumbfounded, and did not respond to her, when i met dr slomka, the orthopeadic surgeon dr shah referred me too, he said, not just once, but twice, that he would do EXACTLY the same thing doc jackson is doing to manage my pain but that he could not do must else for me unless he saw a need for surgery, so there i have two doctors telling me oppostite things,
i later wrote dr shah a letter saying gary my first case manager said it was okay and logical for me to keep seeing doctor jackson as long as i had a sponsor who pays for him (james griffin), and that it was important to see him becasue he is the very doctor that told me to file for disability in the first case, why in the world would dr shah tell me to stop seeing doc jackson, it makes no sense
now they are getting their way, i think on purpose they passed this new law, so they no longer have to pay for doc jacksons medciatons, and they have been paying for all of them for a total of a year now, so now she is forcing me to turn to her to get my medicationa paid for, and so she can f uck with me and my pain medications, no one even told me about the changes, when i renewed my case on friday, there were orange signs everywhere in all the offices, that said pinellas county would no longer pay for meds from doctors not on their list, my very own case manager never even said one word to me, so i talked to the girl that took my picture, and she told me to try to sign up with her doctor, who gives out pain pills, but low and behold, under the doctors name, it says "closed panel, not accepting any new clients", i really think pinellas county has done this on purpose, cause i was the only one who keep seeing my doctor and they paid for my meds, i really think dr shah got in an uproar and had them change the rules, just to fuck with me......noneof the other clients have sponsors who pay for thier own doctors, they are all so poor they have to settle for the pinellas primary care doctor and do what they have to do, i am the only one with a sponsor and gary, my fisrst case manager said that was okay, but now dr shah doenst like me seeing doc jackson, she hasnt even called him for his medical records, and that is fucked up, the first thing she should have done is get my five years of medial records so she would know what is goingon with me, but to this date, doc jackson has not heard one word from her, what a bitch
\r\n \r\nlittle does she know how much j ames cares for me, that fromday one he paid for doc jackson at 55$ every 25 days and most of my medications, cause i can pay him $270 for rent from the pinellas program for the past year and for two more years, so james does not mind that\r\n\r\n \r\ni am so tired of having doctors with attitude fuck with me, i have been nice and professional, and dr shah an dr slomka have no idea i dont like dr shah, i really do like dr slomka, he understood from day one how much pain i was in, i was in his office for two hours, i had taken NONE of my pain medications as to not\r\n\r\nhide my symptoms, so he took x rays with me standing up, and i had to walk a lot with my walker and ice, and i was just in so much pain, i did not cry, but i could tell he could tell how much i hurt, i told him i was bedridden allthe time now, and tthats the truth, i am in bed all the time now here at home, i cant walk, i cant stand, and i cant sit for longer then 20 minutes in a chair or in a cab, and then i have to lay down on ice packs while i cry moan, and wish i was dead\r\n\r\n \r\ngod i wish i could get oxycodone, it would make my life so much easier, but i think im not gonna ask doc jackson yet until he gets the x rays and the mri s, and go from there, the bones in my knees are just falling apart, when i lay down in bed the knnee caps move and crack and it hurts like hell, i try to sleep with pillows between each knee, but that hurts too, i cant sleep on my back as that makes the spine get inflammed and hurts more, ice helps that a lot, but im dumfounded, as the x rays of my back didnt show anything to dr slomka, so what the hell is wrong with my back.\r\n",1]
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little does she know how much j ames cares for me, that fromday one he paid for doc jackson at 55$ every 25 days and most of my medications, cause i can pay him $270 for rent from the pinellas program for the past year and for two more years, so james does not mind that
i am so tired of having doctors with attitude fuck with me, i have been nice and professional, and dr shah an dr slomka have no idea i dont like dr shah, i really do like dr slomka, he understood from day one how much pain i was in, i was in his office for two hours, i had taken NONE of my pain medications as to not
hide my symptoms, so he took x rays with me standing up, and i had to walk a lot with my walker and ice, and i was just in so much pain, i did not cry, but i could tell he could tell how much i hurt, i told him i was bedridden allthe time now, and tthats the truth, i am in bed all the time now here at home, i cant walk, i cant stand, and i cant sit for longer then 20 minutes in a chair or in a cab, and then i have to lay down on ice packs while i cry moan, and wish i was dead
god i wish i could get oxycodone, it would make my life so much easier, but i think im not gonna ask doc jackson yet until he gets the x rays and the mri s, and go from there, the bones in my knees are just falling apart, when i lay down in bed the knnee caps move and crack and it hurts like hell, i try to sleep with pillows between each knee, but that hurts too, i cant sleep on my back as that makes the spine get inflammed and hurts more, ice helps that a lot, but im dumfounded, as the x rays of my back didnt show anything to dr slomka, so what the hell is wrong with my back.
\r\nlove u, thanks for listening, can you at least reaspond as to what they are going to find in my urine and my blood work on the 5th , in two weeks, are they gonna tell me i cant take pain pills anymore, or are they gonna tell me my cholestoral is high, that would be no big deal, but i cant have kidney trouble, i have to be able to keep taking pain pills, or i am going to kills myself for sure, no doubt about it. no doubt about it at all. \r\n\r\n \r\nlov eu, and i misss hearing from you , did u get stuck in that hurrience, i have left my aol im on 24 hours a day listening for you to enter the room, but u must be busy, i miss u, and will send u more flexoril when i figure out what these stupid doctors are gonna do with my meds\r\n\r\n \r\nwhen the next two years are over, i am gooing to complain somehow about doc shah, and how she told me to stop seeing doc jackson but she did not prescribe any medications when she told me to stop seeing him, my blood pressure was sky high the first time i saw her, and she knew all the meds i took, and she didnt prescribe a single med, and i left her to think i was not seeing him anymore, and for two months she did not call me to prescribe any medicatiions of any kind\r\n\r\n \r\nso at that point i wrote her aand told here i had to keep seeing dr jackson, and then one month later, they change the rules and they no longer will pay for any medciations from doc jackson, now that sounds personal to me, so she can fuck with me, i hate doctors who enjoy seeing clients in pain\r\n\r\n \r\ni have been nice to her from day one, i did not offer her any attitude, i was as kind as kind can be, i asked her to refer me to an orthopeadic surgeon for m;y knees, and what did she do, the only and first thing she did, was refer me to doctor slomka a REFERRAL FOR MY BACK AND NECK, NOT FOR MY KNEES<>
love u, thanks for listening, can you at least reaspond as to what they are going to find in my urine and my blood work on the 5th , in two weeks, are they gonna tell me i cant take pain pills anymore, or are they gonna tell me my cholestoral is high, that would be no big deal, but i cant have kidney trouble, i have to be able to keep taking pain pills, or i am going to kills myself for sure, no doubt about it. no doubt about it at all.
lov eu, and i misss hearing from you , did u get stuck in that hurrience, i have left my aol im on 24 hours a day listening for you to enter the room, but u must be busy, i miss u, and will send u more flexoril when i figure out what these stupid doctors are gonna do with my meds
when the next two years are over, i am gooing to complain somehow about doc shah, and how she told me to stop seeing doc jackson but she did not prescribe any medications when she told me to stop seeing him, my blood pressure was sky high the first time i saw her, and she knew all the meds i took, and she didnt prescribe a single med, and i left her to think i was not seeing him anymore, and for two months she did not call me to prescribe any medicatiions of any kind
so at that point i wrote her aand told here i had to keep seeing dr jackson, and then one month later, they change the rules and they no longer will pay for any medciations from doc jackson, now that sounds personal to me, so she can fuck with me, i hate doctors who enjoy seeing clients in pain
i have been nice to her from day one, i did not offer her any attitude, i was as kind as kind can be, i asked her to refer me to an orthopeadic surgeon for m;y knees, and what did she do, the only and first thing she did, was refer me to doctor slomka a REFERRAL FOR MY BACK AND NECK, NOT FOR MY KNEES<>
i have a year or two with this program, and i am going to change to another primary care physicain no matter what i do, i am going to write all of the primary care doctors who have closed panels, i am going to tell them about my situation and how m uch help i need, i will not bad mouth her, but i will wirte and write, until i find someoine with compassion, i really want dr koser, who is a D.O., like my doc jackson, they told me to call back in oct to see if he has an opeinging, as i have done every month since dec of 2004, but i am going to write him a letter, in the hopes he will take my case, let me still see dr slomka, and refer me to a urologist for my kidney stones, and to a heart specialsit as i have high bl ood pressure and my heart rate always is beating too fast, my heart rate has beated fast for over seven years now, every time they measure my heart rate its fast,
back in 2003, when i was supposed to do a vocational rehab test to see if i could work for workers comp, a test that was gonna cost kids in distress 700 bucks, my heart rate was so high they could not do the test, and they got out of doing the test casue they settled my case the next week and gave me 5000 bucks, the altack lowers my blood pressure, but even last month when carol took my heart rate, it was real fast, i rally think im gonna go out the way my dear grandfather went, he has a massive heart attack, or the way nana went, with strokes, i would prefer to go out with one big massive heart attack, so i could be your angel and james angel, moms angel, and help out all my firends,
i would prefer to get all this under control, get disabiilty and do my ceramcis and make some money, but if i get turned down, as i was told today that clients with bachlors get turned down all the time by disability judges, i had a lady tell me today over the phone, that the disability judges are "mean" if you have a bachlors and they will turn you down, she told me to take a vocational rehab test and make sure i fail it, so i have an orientation in a few months to do thhis rehab thing, to see if i can work, i am gonna go with my walker, take no pain pills, and fail the test, she was reallfy nice, but she siad judges consider disabled persons with bachlor degrees smart enuff that they can work no matter what, isnt that somehting
\r\n \r\ngod keeps turning me on to all these insiders, that tell me things i need to know in dealing with the hearing judges, he name was Janeth Colan, a social worker 2, alternative benfit specialsit who works in my case managers officer, he told me to go to the vocational rehab departmetn and see if they turn me down in the test, she toldme to make an appt with their counselor, go to an orientation at 3pm on every thursday, at 2735 whitney road, she said it was a work program and was made to get people back to work, but she said it would be smart of me to go there and act like i wanted to get back to work, since i am disabled and have a hearing in a year, and that i have a bachlors in socilogoy from stetson and that i was a kids counselor for many years, that i was 50 years old. and Janeth told me to go ther adn if i failed and they said i could not work it would help me in my case with the administratiave law judge, as she said some of the judges are mean and if someone (her words) has a bachelors they wont find them disabled no natter what, even though i can not walk, sit, or stand, so meeting her today and talking to her\r\n\r\non the phone today is another one of those blessings from god, or my angels....its funny how more and more of these strangers come to my attention out of the blue to help me, \r\n\r\n \r\nso if worse comes to worse, and i dont get disabled, i am going to see if dr slomka can do knee surgery and i will try to start with substitute teaching, cause that was my orignial plan in fort lauderdale anyhow, and i would go back to school, somehow get f unding, so i could teach art in elementary school, no more bad kids for me, but starting with substitute teaching, would get me in the door, and i might even be able to do that in a wheelchair\r\n",1]
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god keeps turning me on to all these insiders, that tell me things i need to know in dealing with the hearing judges, he name was Janeth Colan, a social worker 2, alternative benfit specialsit who works in my case managers officer, he told me to go to the vocational rehab departmetn and see if they turn me down in the test, she toldme to make an appt with their counselor, go to an orientation at 3pm on every thursday, at 2735 whitney road, she said it was a work program and was made to get people back to work, but she said it would be smart of me to go there and act like i wanted to get back to work, since i am disabled and have a hearing in a year, and that i have a bachlors in socilogoy from stetson and that i was a kids counselor for many years, that i was 50 years old. and Janeth told me to go ther adn if i failed and they said i could not work it would help me in my case with the administratiave law judge, as she said some of the judges are mean and if someone (her words) has a bachelors they wont find them disabled no natter what, even though i can not walk, sit, or stand, so meeting her today and talking to her
on the phone today is another one of those blessings from god, or my angels....its funny how more and more of these strangers come to my attention out of the blue to help me,
so if worse comes to worse, and i dont get disabled, i am going to see if dr slomka can do knee surgery and i will try to start with substitute teaching, cause that was my orignial plan in fort lauderdale anyhow, and i would go back to school, somehow get f unding, so i could teach art in elementary school, no more bad kids for me, but starting with substitute teaching, would get me in the door, and i might even be able to do that in a wheelchair
\r\nim just gonna cover all my basis, the pinellas program says in their paperwork, they will either fix me and get me back to work, or help me with my disability case, and in both instances, i will be responsible for payingthem back the $270 per month rent they give me, and that if i win my case, my lawyer (who i dont really like but its too late to change him, i looked into it, and im stuck with him, but he does know the local judges here and he is local), he will get %25 of my lump sum payment and/or $5300, my lump sum payment is figured from when my workers comp lawyer filed my case, so that was dec of 2000 to present day, at i thingk 700 bucks per month, so that total would go into a bank account, the lawyer gets his first amount, and the pinellas county gets theirs, and im told usually not much is left, but what they cant touch is my ssi, which is the monthly amount i will get to live on for the rest of my life, which is a horrible $740 per month, food stamps, some kind of help with housing, medicare, some kind of mobility device, so i can have some kind of one of those things you see old people driving around at the grand canyon OLOLLLOLOL\r\n\r\n \r\n \r\ni would still see doc jackson, but someday he will die, and then medicare or some sort will give me a doctor, pay for my meds, unless george w bush fucks with that, and that is what he is trying to do know\r\n\r\n \r\nbut at least by that time, i wont have any bones in my knees, my spine will be shot to hell, i will be on major pain pills, i will be living in a mobil home, or as james griffin says, i will be living with him, with a ceramic studio and doing my art work\r\n\r\n ",1]
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im just gonna cover all my basis, the pinellas program says in their paperwork, they will either fix me and get me back to work, or help me with my disability case, and in both instances, i will be responsible for payingthem back the $270 per month rent they give me, and that if i win my case, my lawyer (who i dont really like but its too late to change him, i looked into it, and im stuck with him, but he does know the local judges here and he is local), he will get %25 of my lump sum payment and/or $5300, my lump sum payment is figured from when my workers comp lawyer filed my case, so that was dec of 2000 to present day, at i thingk 700 bucks per month, so that total would go into a bank account, the lawyer gets his first amount, and the pinellas county gets theirs, and im told usually not much is left, but what they cant touch is my ssi, which is the monthly amount i will get to live on for the rest of my life, which is a horrible $740 per month, food stamps, some kind of help with housing, medicare, some kind of mobility device, so i can have some kind of one of those things you see old people driving around at the grand canyon OLOLLLOLOL
i would still see doc jackson, but someday he will die, and then medicare or some sort will give me a doctor, pay for my meds, unless george w bush fucks with that, and that is what he is trying to do know
but at least by that time, i wont have any bones in my knees, my spine will be shot to hell, i will be on major pain pills, i will be living in a mobil home, or as james griffin says, i will be living with him, with a ceramic studio and doing my art work
or i will have drivin my wonderful mobility device off the grand canyon, "od" on pills, or jumped out of a plane with a parachut and landed in that island in the tv movie \'LOST", where my knees will by a miracle started working again, i will hunt wild bore and feed the other stranded plane persons, or i will be fighting that unknown beast in the woods, or i will be living down in the "hutch". listening to records and living deep underground under that island of mystery, or .......\r\n\r\n \r\n \r\ni will have a ceramic studio at st pete clay company in downtown st pete, in florida, with 24 hour access, with my wheelchair, and i will be making crosses and stuff that will make me famous, and for once in my life, my last and one dream will come true.\r\n\r\n \r\n \r\n \r\n \r\n \r\nlove u, and i miss you, did you see any thing in the devils triangle?\r\ndid you see tommy locke while you where down there, he has been around me these days, he is one of my angels you know.\r\n \r\n-- dave hughes \r\n\r\n",0]
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or i will have drivin my wonderful mobility device off the grand canyon, "od" on pills, or jumped out of a plane with a parachut and landed in that island in the tv movie 'LOST", where my knees will by a miracle started working again, i will hunt wild bore and feed the other stranded plane persons, or i will be fighting that unknown beast in the woods, or i will be living down in the "hutch". listening to records and living deep underground under that island of mystery, or .......
i will have a ceramic studio at st pete clay company in downtown st pete, in florida, with 24 hour access, with my wheelchair, and i will be making crosses and stuff that will make me famous, and for once in my life, my last and one dream will come true.
love u, and i miss you, did you see any thing in the devils triangle?
did you see tommy locke while you where down there, he has been around me these days, he is one of my angels you know.
Thursday, September 22, 2005
8 of Swords
in the Present position.
A card in the middle position indicates what is affecting your question at this time.
The Eight of Swords is a card of bondage and restriction, whether the cause of this is an illness, a disability, or family or financial circumstances. This dilemma is largely self-created, the bondage is your own fear.
Thursday, September 08, 2005
Thursday, September 01, 2005
Four of Pentacles
in the Past position.
A card in the left position indicates what has happened to affect your question in the past.
The Four of Pentacles reminds us not to depend on what we own for our sense of security. The pursuit of material gain alone is barren and destructive to both individuals and the larger organism of life. A culture that has survived for so long in the desert knows that the best insurance is the love and support of community. If one falls, the others will be there to support them. This true wealth can�t be hoarded. This card may represent a time when survival instincts are needed. A genuine danger to your security could be at hand, so clever stewardship of resources is important. At the same time, don�t let irrational fears of deprivation take over. You are being asked to honestly examine your relationship with money and possessions. Recognize and appreciate the forces that sustain your life. Failure to do so brings stagnation and an ironic scarcity of funds.
Sibyl of Swords
in the Future position.
A card in the right position indicates your questions future.
The Sibyl of Swords often symbolizes someone whose life has been marked by great personal loss. By facing pain and sorrow with courage and integrity, she has grown wise, but she can also be cynical and remote. This Sibyl may be an intelligent and reserved person in your life. She may also be a part of yourself with something important to tell you.
Sibyl of Swords
in the Future position.
A card in the right position indicates your questions future.
The Sibyl of Swords often symbolizes someone whose life has been marked by great personal loss. By facing pain and sorrow with courage and integrity, she has grown wise, but she can also be cynical and remote. This Sibyl may be an intelligent and reserved person in your life. She may also be a part of yourself with something important to tell you.