Hi, how are you. Things at work have settled down. My sister wanted me to go to Deland after work on saturday, I said no, all I wanted was to be alone. I feel like being a little selfish right now. I don't care if no one understands what is going on with me. I'm just determined to beat back the forces that try to undermind my well being.

I hope that everything works out for James. It would seem that many people are feeling what's going on. Have you heard that Bush is having a really bad time in Washington lately? His own party is deserting him. The lost of life is incredible. I think that they are all asses. War is hell, how many lifes have to be lost before these idiots get it. I doubt that they ever will. All the money that he is just throwing away is just apalling.

I've been painting all this week. I gardened last thursday. It made me feel better. I've been working out at home for two weeks, getting small results. I'm going to try to make the best of my situation. If I could afford it, I would have gone to the baths over the weekend. But, since I didn't I spent alot of time resting, and rearranging things in my apartment. I just never feel like it's clean here anymore. I need funds to make things right. It's always this way this time of year. I need to realize that there is so much that can be done without money, it just takes creativity.