Saturday, September 28, 2002

Friday, September 27, 2002

Do climate shifts spark ice meteors?
God and globalization

i make one request
that someday i will rid myself of doctors and the like of such
and move freely on the earth
free of pain
i was born in 1973
and i died in 2002
and i was born again
to never die
and then there was a storm
and a madness
and a darkness
and all was lost, and i was gone
and then amoungst my own tears
i found hope

Thursday, September 26, 2002

i hate this thing called depression

it takes me over and for such a ride

i hate this thing called depression

it will be the death of me
the pain in my neck was madness this weekend

and its been seven months since the injuries

why am i not getting better
when i put my ear to my heart
i hear so much difficulty
in its pumping madness

this heart is screaming that it cant keep this up
this heart is dying and pumping too thick blood thru this
oh so tired body

i see no end in sight
i lie here in bed, wondering how much the settlement will be
wondering how much kids in distress will end up screwing me over

i bet they will take me to the cleaners, i will be lucky to get
the minimum settlement

done of it matters now
my knees hurt so much i cant stand it
and none of the doctors will treat them

am i suppose to rise up from these ashes
if so, then just how am i suppose to do this

when my body is full of pain
how many more streams of my tears must i drown in my lord
i can feel it coming, i can feel it in my bones
death is approaching me
death is just around the corner

my heart beats too hard these days
this high blood pressure and all this pain in my back, knees, and neck

i fear my few friends will not deal with my passing well

i was meant for so much more this time around
i was meant to be a great artist

but some where along the way i got lost
Sex, IQ and extraterrestrials
Criminal Complaint to United States Attorney General John Ashcroft
Freedom From Religion, Si!
Alan Boyle: Cosmic Log
zzz
NASA plots a course for deep space
GHB Resources
Iraq: It�s the Oil, Stupid
my world is falling apart

i am in great pain, and since my blood pressure is high, the doc wont treat my pain
till my blood pressure is down

and i have no funds for blood pressure meds or to see the blood pressure doc
i really wish i was dead

Sunday, September 22, 2002

SparkNotes: One Hundred Years of Solitude
Travel Column
www.gayhiphop.com
Mother sought in beating surrenders
Star Wars: Episode II | Episode II Coming to IMAX Theaters
Art in Context - Index
Fantasya: Another vision of Article Fantasy, Erotic Art, Manga, DIGITAL, Photographs, Comics...
ThinkQuest Library of Entries
i am drawing some, if you
can call this style of tracing drawing
here i am again

my neck starting acting up last night,
my knees hurt today

i want to thank friends and dr s for helping with this pain

i see no end in site still
why am i not getting better
why do muscle spasms seems to last forever
and in this case, get worse over time

i really want to teach in january, but how in hell
will i pass a medical and physical exam

dave hell
Dad Saves Abused, Emaciated Daughtewhy is there so much child abuse in central and south florida, and let me tell you, the systems in check, like dcf, or kids in distress, hardly help matters....i think they
cause much much more harm then good, and i have been a childrens counselor for several years........

Friday, September 20, 2002

Thursday, September 12, 2002

Tuesday, September 10, 2002

today my lawyer states:

Welcome to the W.C. system in Fla. The ins. co's. pick & pay for the Drs.
Whose side do you think they will favor???

indeed , workers comp is a big joke, run by the insurance companies and employers
if you get hurt on the job, find your own family doctor, pay for it yourself, and get better

you will not get better if you stay in the system and hope on the system to help you out
the workers comp in florida is in no way intended to help anyone out but the
insurance companies, the doctors who they hire, pay for, and direct them as to what to do

i have been unable to get meds for pain for a month now
and it is a direct result of the insurance company

it took the insurance company three months last time to get just a list to
me for a new doctor, i have a mediation hearing in oct 15, and i hope to settle
and use what little money i get to see a normal family doctor and pay for
it myself and pay for the meds myself, this is what my lawyer said today
after i was bitching about all of this:

Welcome to the W.C. system in Fla. The ins. co's. pick & pay for the Drs.
Whose side do you think they will favor???
Ron
Leaders: DCF Changes Arduous
Terrorist risk level raised to �high�
pain in both knees, back
death all around me
dreams of no skin on my feet
tina brown looking in my gargage door
its all going down
i am going to die
i am going to die
blood pressure high and no way to pay for doc or meds
dr schwartz doesnt care
dr abrahamsen doenst care
i am going to die
Tape of alleged hijackers surfaces
church cameras

Monday, September 09, 2002

ZZZ
MAY YOUR DARK WINGS TAKE
YOU TO THE ENDS OF THIS EARTH

MAY YOU FIND YOUR MIRRORED SELVES
IN THE PAIN YOU HAVE CAUSED ME
An Introduction To Scientology
What's Wrong with Scientology?
Scientology's Crimes
Ex-Scientologist Collects $8.7 Million In 22-Year-Old Case (washingtonpost.com)
Reed Slatkin Media Resource
Scientology Lies
Scientology Official Home Page
The Official Scientology and Dianetics Glossary
The Mysterious Death of L. Ron Hubbard
Why are these people dead Scientology?
Critical Information about Scientology, by Jeff Jacobsen. Remember Lisa McPherson
Occupied Clearwater
by Jeff Jacobsen
Lisa McPherson Memorial Page: killed by the Church of Scientology
Lisa McPherson Memorial Page: killed by the Church of Scientology
Why are these people dead Scientology?Before Noah Lottick (24) killed himself, he had paid more than $5,000 for church counseling. His behavior had also become strange. He once remarked to his parents that his Scientology mentors could actually read minds. When his father suffered a major heart attack, Noah insisted that it was purely psychosomatic.Scientologist Lisa was locked up in room 174 of the Fort Harrison Hotel, Scientology's headquarter in Clearwater.
Seventeen days later she was dead. Her death was caused by severe dehydration. She was bitten by cockroaches.
Fishman Affidavit - OT3, summary and commentsOT III>
Scientology - Ineke Franssen is not a Scientologist anymore - find out what I lost in Scientology...Why are these people dead Scientology?
The Roots of Scientology - Index'Black Sex-Magic'
"Scientology is not a Religion", says its guru Hubbard
At their beginning the German Nazis cloaked themselves as a sort of Religion. Guess what Scientology (+ Dianetics) is doing...
The Roots of Scientology - The Admissions of L. Ron Hubbard�Not all that long ago, someone sent me a copy of the set of writings which follow, written by L. Ron Hubbard in or about 1947.
Scientology - Ineke Franssen is not a Scientologist anymore - find out what I lost in Scientology...
British BodyThetan Society Home Page
Scientology - Ineke Franssen is not a Scientologist anymore - find out what I lost in Scientology...
zzzzz
may they all rot in hell
may they all rot in hell
may they all rot in hell
pain in my knees today

god

Sunday, September 08, 2002

i am not into sci
but i do live in clearwater


as a sociologist ..........
not a scientologist...........
Suggestions for Further Study - Communication, How can Scientology help me...
Church of Scientology Clearwater, Florida
Relationships; Understanding People; Getting along with others, How can Scientology help me...
Targets and Goals, How can Scientology help me with...In this section, you will discover how to attain literally any goal, large or small.
Factors of Communication - Communication, How can Scientology help me...
Scientology's "Operating Thetan Level VI"Be three feet in back of your head. .
Scientology's "Operating Thetan Level V"In 1967, L. Ron Hubbard released Section V of the Operating Thetan Course, the most powerful level released up to that time. On OT V you learn the truth about the Physical Universe, not the laws of physical scientists, but the basic considerations about Matter, Energy, Space and Time.
Scientology's "Operating Thetan Level III".One of these scientific refutations may be found on my homepage: Peter Fordes Scientific Scrutiny of OT 3. Hubbard's 'facts' flunk on astrophysics: our universe is much younger that he believes it to be. So be well advised and take Hubbard's story as fiction rather than fact.
Scientology's "Operating Thetan Level III".(p. 99-100)

Judging by this, I don't think Hubbard supported either the Bing Bang or the Expanding Universe-theory in his private cosmology, although both make much more sense than his. Let's lable this one the Snap Story. We have here an undecisive cherub, who doesn't know whether to turn left or right and who comes out twice without ever retreating; and we have horns. A bit angelic for somebody who, as we shall see later, believed that Christ was an implant.

Let's turn to Incident II, which allegedly happened 75 million years ago and occurred on earth:
Incident II is over 36 days long. Capture on other planets was weeks or months before the implant. Those on Teegeeack (Earth) were just blown up except for Loyal officers who were (shortly before the explosion on Earth) rounded up
Scientology's "Operating Thetan Level III".The head of the Galactic Federation (76 planets around larger stars visible from here) (founded 95,000,000 years ago, very space opera) solved overpopulation (250 billion or so per planet - 178 billion on average) by mass implanting
Karin Spaink - The Fishman Affidavit: contents,Read the full Fishman Affidavit, or go to OT III immediately
Scientology's 'Upper Levels', The Super Power Rundown,
SUPER POWER. A Super fantastic, but confidential series of rundowns that can be done on anyone whether Dianetic Clear or not that puts the person into fantastic shape unleashing the super power of a thetan. This is the means that puts Scientologists into a new realm of ability enabling them to create the New World. It puts world Clearing within reach in the future
Scientology's 'Upper Levels', The Super Power Rundown
Scientology's "Operating Thetan Levels". Summary and Analysis. In early August, 1995, an electronic version of the document known as the Fishman Declaration became widely available on the Internet. Because this court record contained information jealously guarded by Scientology(tm) organizations, it became the immediate focus of a great deal of interest and controversy.
This information consisted of course materials written by L. Ron Hubbard for a program to transform an individual into a Being with super-human powers, known as an Operating Thetan, or OT. A multitude of people have obtained copies of this material, because of the controversy it has engendered, and the number of very important related issues that have been raised
Scientology's "Operating Thetan Levels". Summary and Analysis
The 'Upper Levels' of Scientology - Index
The Regime Report - Welcome To Tyrants 'R' Us
The Regime Report - Welcome To Tyrants 'R' Us
The Truth About Scientology
IRS Guide to Scientology
ARS Web Page Summary - Scientology Links
Freezone International
Lisa McPherson
D I G L - W A T C H -- Bryan Zwan, Digital Lightwave & Scientology
Occupied Clearwater - Exposing the criminal cult of Scientology in the Tampa Bay area
Operation Clambake - A.r.s. Week in Review
Operation Clambake - The Inner Secrets Of Scientology
The poor and famous Hollywood Scientologists
Scientology: Ex OT-7 Michael Pattinson Speaks out!
Church Of Scientology: Money cost of Membership: $380,000 !!!
Operation Clambake present: The XENU Leaflet
Employment with UCP
bayshorepatriots
Rumsfeld�s War
what would i do without friend like james g and teri and james j

even when this darkness crowds me so that i can not breath
even when knives fall from the sky
even when muscles in my body betray me in pain
even when scissors within my penis cause me to cry out n pain

my dear friends are always here
by my side
helping me

Friday, September 06, 2002

The Mind Benders, Scientology - Cyril Vosper
The Road to Xenu
Bare-Faced Messiah
The homepage of Tilman Hausherr
Church v. Google - How the Church of Scientology is forcing Google to censor its critics - Microcontent News, a Corante.com Microblog
Biz Stone, Genius
BlogofficeXP
connect the dots , from teri, love u so much
song to nine eleven, thanks teri
More Americans using illicit drugs
Panel backs legalizing pot in Canada
Employee insurance costs skyrocket
Florida boys guilty of murder, arson
WebMD - Can 'Chi' Ease Arthritis Pain?
The Speed of Gravity - Repeal the Speed Limit
Meaning of the "speed of gravity"
MPIfR: Public
NRAO Very Long Baseline Array General Public Information
INTERNATIONAL TEAM OF SCIENTISTS ATTEMPTS TO MEASURE SPEED OF GRAVITY
Does Gravity Travel at the Speed of Light?
Alan Boyle: Cosmic Log
�Secrets of the Tomb�
Telescope hits a galactic bull�s eye
CNN.com - Paper: Rival rapper provided Tupac murder weapon - September 6, 2002

Thursday, September 05, 2002

World Trade Center flag is missing
Alice in Quantumland - physics allegory
'Manifold: Time' Starts SF Trilogy with Apocalyptic Bang
Alan Boyle: Cosmic Log
See the world via Webcam
Arabs declare unity behind Iraq
this pain in both my knees is increasing
it must be all the rain today
god, god help me
i have been trying to get unemployment the past few weeks
as i am in dire need
Kids in Distress has told the unemployment people
i left because i wanted to move
they know very well it was due to my pain and the fact
i could not even walk due to restraining kids for over a year
i am stunned at how evil people can be
they are a social service agency
and they abuse their employees and the children
this is a nightmare
way to you allow this god?
Glimpse of the Day

Wednesday, September 04, 2002

just spoke with my lawyer about my pre deposition today
and my deposition on friday
it went really well, she said i sounded intelligent and comfortable on the phone
and she is submitting a petition for benefits for a new orthopeadic surgeon
i am blessed
now if only i could get unemployment
West Nile-transplant link confirmed
Powell heckled at Earth Summit

Tuesday, September 03, 2002

Glimpse of the Day
i will fight
and i will continue fighting
for the fight i fight
is the
good fight
im sending that idiot of a doc
dr abrahamsen one more fax
hopefully he will just get over me
and hopefully my adjuster
will let me see another doc
a doc with a heart
i know i post a lot of links
its my way of saving shit
till i can cum back later
and look it all over
zzz
Goth With a Sledgehammer
Defining Goth
Goth House
index.page
darkwave.org.uk Information
he loves his coffin more
Goth Journals Webring
lumivalkoinen's journal
Goth Journals Webring
Goth Central Station
:: Goth Works ~ Dorks, Film, Music, Forum ::
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g o t h | i s | d e a d - journal and gallery
Voltaire.net - Oh My Goth!
A Study of Gothic Subculture: an Inside Look for Outsiders
Welcome to SD Goth
The Los Angeles & Orange County Goth-Industrial Network
rebecca 'I am not a goth' blood
Net.Goth Guide to Seattle - Index
GAY GOTH NETWORK
GOTH
Gothic Clothing and Hair Dye at Goodgoth.com Gothic clothing, clothes, striped tights, halloween costume, vinyl pvc catsuit, gowns, dress cosmetics, hairdye Hair dye Vinyl, PVC,
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GothRosary.com
How To Be Goth (in less than an hour!)
An Early History of Goth
The Goth culture: its history, practices, stereotypes, religious connections, etc.
w e l c o m e
The International Gothic Club Listing
GOTH.NET
A goth primer

Monday, September 02, 2002

Internet Web Guide June 2002: The Arts
Irresponsible Pictures links page
Welcome to Art and Culture
F&M Library: What's New!
Diabolical Art
ProjectMonkey.com | NEWS
Eddie Breen on Outsider Ink
Outsider Ink - Archive
Eddie's Head
these knees cry out in pain today
i am walking into a brick wall
and this brick wall hits back
slapping me in the face and
knocking me down
how do i fight such the likes of this
how do i stand against these odds
when the whole world turns against you
what do you do
when doctors do not care
when no one cares
what do you do
how do you make a plan for your life
under these circumstances?
up today and doing my job search for unemployment
in hopes that i do get it
printed out my online applications for teaching jobs
in pineallas and hillsbourgh county

St. Petersburg Times: 9/11
PhysicsWeb - The most beautiful experiment